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aaaannndz

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Feb 17, 2020
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I was practicing partial the other day. Wasn't really paying attention, mind was just wandering. All of a sudden I felt terrified and started screaming uncontrollably. All I could think about was getting out of that noose. I felt fine shortly after getting out. The thing I don't understand is that it was completely involuntary and out of my control. Like someone pressed the "fear" button in my head. I thought maybe it was SI but I had no intention of dying that day, and I haven't even been having much luck with partial anyway so it's not like I accidently got close this time or anything.

I want to prevent this from happening again. Has something like this ever happened to anyone or does anyone know why this happens?
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

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Nov 12, 2021
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Several months ago I practiced partial and I nodded off. I came to moments later certain that I was about to die. SI kicked in and I fumbled with a belt around my neck to get it off as quickly as possible. I wasn't sure I was going to be able to.

I didn't scream because it was the middle of the night and my neighbors would've freaked out. My windows don't have shades and I think my neighbor across the street might've even seen me because they looked at me weird the next day and asked if I was ok.

Point is, it was terrifying.
 
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Worndown

Worndown

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Mar 21, 2019
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Welcome to SI.
Maybe use a gag.
 
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Al_stargate

Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
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My windows don't have shades and I think my neighbor across the street might've even seen me because they looked at me weird the next day and asked if I was ok.
The awkwardness must have been hilarious.
 

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