I have access to almost anything. Looking for more than alcohol, been wishing I could and on the brink for a long time and things are looking to fall apart enough to bring me to 99%. Looking for a substance that'll bring me to 100% as I'd had to have the urge enough and not be able to see it through.
I didnt ask to get better
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Ecstasy (MDMA)? Not sure if it would lower fear-of-death inhibitions, too, if someone were suicidal.
Daxter777
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- May 22, 2023
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Benzos. Before my body got use to them all my fear was gone with a proper high enough dose. Too much and you roofy yourself. If i had sn id probably have drank it without a second though.
Off_Switch
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- Aug 15, 2025
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Pure X will make you orgasmically euphoric and want to live. The only X that will help with this deed are the dirty ones that kick you in to deep depression when the MDMA in them is wearing off.
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- Apr 15, 2022
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Not sure if being orgasmically euphoric and wanting to live are mutually inclusive for everyone.
Off_Switch
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- Aug 15, 2025
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I've been as suicidal as the next person for my entire life, but pure X is one of the few things that ever momentarily lifted me out of it.
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Daxter777
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- May 22, 2023
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I have tolerance build up because i used too much to regularly. I would say start with 2 or 3. But don't be surprised if you don't remember anything or have gaps in your memories.
Benzo I use is 1mg ativan.
A have blacked out on 5mg ubove. Once i took 5mg and in a haze i took another 25mg which is a metric fuck ton dose.
My flat mate said I was falling over furniture. I took the dose at 10 in the morning and became aware at 8pm. I also felt sick for a week afterwards like I had constant low blood pressure dizziness. I do NOT recommend a high dose like 25mg.
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