Help In the last case of despair, would you have the courage to jump headfirst into the wheels of a truck?

[Undead]

I would like to be able to plan and execute a peaceful ctb. But I don't have more time and not many options, so unfortunately I will have to choose a more brutal method. I know I'm going to feel pain, but then I'd like it to be quick and instantaneous. I thought about the possibility of hanging, but I'm afraid of doing it wrong and going through long agonies. So I think the only option left to me is to throw myself headfirst in front of a moving truck. I'll leave a note saying I intentionally got into a collision and the driver wasn't at fault. Hope it's a fractional pain and it's over quickly.
I have no options and I'm desperate, I just have to deal with my survival instincts.
In a desperate moment, would you also choose this option?

 

[Ash]

No, because the other driver might get killed or hurt too. Also, there's no guarantee of CTB but almost certain life changing injuries.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

You sound like you're in incredible emotional pain. I kept reading your post, wanting to comment, but not knowing what to write. But one of the biggest tragedies here, I think, is that we even have to consider these painful, horrific methods because our governments refuse to recognize our bodily autonomy. We can die torturously from poverty, neglect, homelessness... just so long as discussion about and access to reliable, painless methods medicine already knows about are denied us. A huge hug to you.