Venting Imprisonment by my family

[FloatingJellyfish]

I made a post before explaining what happened but now things are getting worse.
Yesterday my mother attacked my dog when I stopped her she started attacking me.
I defended myself but got punished for not letting her hurt me.
Now I've been taken away my keys, card, phone and any outside ways of communication.
Besides this laptop that I shall use to research the sin of not letting your mother hit you.
Today both my sis and mom locked themselves up in their rooms
Every time I see one they refuse talking to me.
I had to write an apology letter to get my things back but she is refusing on reading it or giving my stuff back.
I've been taken away any type of human interaction.
Not allowed to even talk to my friends.
Its tortures.
I'm being treated like I'm a prisoner in isolation confinement for not letting her hit me.
I'm so lonely and sad being treated like lowest of the low.
I just want to kill myself.
I don't want to live like this.
Having her beating me up and then get locked away for daring to defend myself.
I'm in so much pain.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I'm so sorry. Have you told anyone what is going on? It's abuse and legally it sounds like it wouldn't be allowed and needs investigation. But that is my guess and its a whole other story tying to prove anything . You must also be scared of the repercussions that might occur. It's a trap, but in my opinion, you have 3 choices, leave your home for good, ctb or stay and try to sweat it out. If you stay, even until youv'e organised your get away, you need to be cleaver and find strategies. Be wise, get tough.

Have you tried to show your mother that you have boundaries and can't be simply pushed around and treated as a punching bag at her whim? Is this the first time she has taken your keys and cards ? That is stealing and you could report her. She cannot stop you from talking to friends and other people. Does she do this kind of thing often and for how long? Have you got any supportive friends? You need strategies. I know planning to CTB can be strategy, but have you tried others? I gather your sister is on your mums side?

Yes you will be feeling very low and ashamed and its a heavy weight to bear. You are a victim by someone who is supposed to care and love you, but who instead is using you to make herself feel better by bullying and being in control. As a victim of domestic abuse myself, narcissistic father and narc golden child sister, I can only try to share some of my own strategies in the hope something might help you.

I decided to stay and endure the abuse for personal and financial reasons. Some would say its been the wrong choce, but familes are complicated and we need money to survive. Some of my strategies have worked in the past to some degree, but they do not seem to be working anymore and are currently falling apart. Ctb is my back up plan but i still employ strategies to survive while i wait for the right timing.