I'm tired...

[SadGirl]

I'm in a job, working 12 hours every day. No benefits, just pay and a break. My parents manipulate me, they do not understand that I want to study and I am someone, they do not understand that I want another job that is not so exhausting and let me study because it does not work. My mother is narcissistic, a victim, I am always wrong, I always have to do what she wants, because she is always right, always manipulating me, I love her, but so their personality kills me slowly. Depression returning, along with a constant desire to cry. I don't know how to solve this shit. I'm just tired of all this, of always being like this.

 

[Circles]

I wish I could offer words or advice that could change things. I can't relate much and I don't know your situation, but if it's at all possible(?), maybe try to set some boundaries between you and your mother first, or atleast talk about getting another job so you have time to study more which would, in principle atleast, give you an open door to more job opportunities. I know it's easier said than done though especially with controlling parents. Sorry you're in this predicament.

 

[v1car10us]

coming from a family where my father was a law enforcement officer, an alcoholic, pill addict, racist, white stereotyped asshole, i can completely understand where you're coming from. people always say things like "oh, just move out!" but it's not that easy, is it? everything i tried to say to them, they had to say something negative or sarcastic in regards to it. it gets so tiring living life with people who dont understand how you think, how you feel, your hopes and aspirations, etc. my mother is the same way, she only thinks about herself and always has to be in control. shes still a great person though. i know where you're coming from. your situation sounds a lot like mine. it seems like there's no break from depression sometimes. i just feel like eventually im going to collapse from the weight of it all

 

[SadGirl]

coming from a family where my father was a law enforcement officer, an alcoholic, pill addict, racist, white stereotyped asshole, i can completely understand where you're coming from. people always say things like "oh, just move out!" but it's not that easy, is it? everything i tried to say to them, they had to say something negative or sarcastic in regards to it. it gets so tiring living life with people who dont understand how you think, how you feel, your hopes and aspirations, etc. my mother is the same way, she only thinks about herself and always has to be in control. shes still a great person though. i know where you're coming from. your situation sounds a lot like mine. it seems like there's no break from depression sometimes. i just feel like eventually im going to collapse from the weight of it all

My mother is a great person, but besides the narcissistic personality they have, she is also a good person. But don't think twice about judging you and saying shit to make you feel worse than you already are.

 

[v1car10us]

My mother is a great person, but besides the narcissistic personality they have, she is also a good person. But don't think twice about judging you and saying shit to make you feel worse than you already are.

i understand exactly what you mean. i feel like it stems from their childhood and the way that they were raised, bc it almost seems like dont do it on purpose, i would say, they just dont really take it into consideration. maybe they just dont expect us to be hurt, maybe they just dont care, but either way it still hurts. i empathize for you and i wish i could take your pain and make it my own.

 

[SadGirl]

i understand exactly what you mean. i feel like it stems from their childhood and the way that they were raised, bc it almost seems like dont do it on purpose, i would say, they just dont really take it into consideration. maybe they just dont expect us to be hurt, maybe they just dont care, but either way it still hurts. i empathize for you and i wish i could take your pain and make it my own.

thank you, very kind of you, there should be more people like you.

 

[v1car10us]

thank you, very kind of you, there should be more people like you.

no problem. feel free to come to me if you ever need anything