Venting I'm throwing it all away.

[MercenariesofMidgar]

The weight of days,
A fleeting breath, an empty stare.
The gift of life, a cruel disguise,
Undeserved for one like I.

To be empty air, to drift away,
To throw it all away.

I tear through hearts, leave grief untamed,
A curse I wear, a soul inflamed.
I do not wish to make you weep,
Yet drag you down into the deep.

I run away
To find some peace
but leave ruin
Upon my release

To throw it all away,
To sever ties, to flee, betray.
Forgive the weight I made you bear,
Forgive my wounds you could not spare.

I know you love me, I know you care,
But I am lost beyond repair.

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.

To throw it all away,
To leave ruin in my wake.
At night, wide awake,
Wishing it were all a mistake.

To end this dream,
To slip away,
To close my eyes,
And hush my cries.

I love this world, its light, its skies,
But I am the thing I most despise.