I have the same problem.
Between my partner and I, I don't actually know who is closer to death.
But unironically it's my hun forcing me to stay clean.
That made me secretly relapse on 3 different things I already worked so hard to quit before, but heyy, actually I really mean this one but one of the main reasons I complied is because I don't want to set my SO off. It will not do them any good at all. Again, I will never know for sure who is in more urgen risk as of right now and by my nature I'd rather do things I don't want to be doing than hurt others, especially if I grew to care about them.
Not really anymore but we would get intimate in the past and simply absolutely no place to hide pretty much any blade or heat related sh yk.
Still paranoid, still being driven insane by the urges. I still feel like I'm going nuts from this despite all else I've been doing to cope, however if it's of any comfort, the urges did get lesser and less frequent in comparison to when I first had to quit cold turkey.
If you really must then probably the least visible areas. If you get intimate then even do avoid the chest and pantyline area... I would say ankles, least obvious bet, and then just wear socks, but also too deep on ankles is not going to be fun at all. As in, at all.
It's an idea you'd eventually probably get to but also it's debatable on how much I reccomend it in the long run.
Such a pity that the other party involved in fact does have a better view of your body than you yourself have.
Even if you sh in areas invisible to you, I don't actually believe that a single spot is ever truly safe from your SO's eyes.
