Help I’m so lonely

[doireallywannadie]

I'm so fucking lonely, but I'm also not lonely. I have friends but whenever I'm with them I feel like I don't fit in. I mean, growing up I was always the "black sheep" of everything. The odd and weird one. I mean, I've met people that I got along with, like in mh servers on discord, but it never lasts long. I hate it so much. I can never hold friendships. I get too attached and annoying too fast, and I'm aware of it but I can't help ittt. I've been told im too much or too less so I can never figured myself out.

I hate having no one to talk to, just sitting in my room like a loser. I want someone I can be a loser with together. Im so freaking lonely I REALLY want friends. Friends that won't leave after a week of chatting. Friends I can have deep talks with, have fun with and joke around.

Plz help im alsmot 19 this is so pathetic

 

[fishperson]

I think u should mention ur age , it helps to find people around ur age bracket

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

I'm so fucking lonely, but I'm also not lonely. I have friends but whenever I'm with them I feel like I don't fit in. I mean, growing up I was always the "black sheep" of everything. The odd and weird one. I mean, I've met people that I got along with, like in mh servers on discord, but it never lasts long. I hate it so much. I can never hold friendships. I get too attached and annoying too fast, and I'm aware of it but I can't help ittt. I've been told im too much or too less so I can never figured myself out.

I hate having no one to talk to, just sitting in my room like a loser. I want someone I can be a loser with together. Im so freaking lonely I REALLY want friends. Friends that won't leave after a week of chatting. Friends I can have deep talks with, have fun with and joke around.

Plz help

I get it. I was "that person" my entire growing up life. Even now. Only difference is, I can hide from people. Couldn't do that in school lol. But yeah, it's very frustrating and annoying.

 

[doireallywannadie]

I wish I could hide away forever too, but having courses and classes make it extremely difficult

 

[sashaisalone]

I'm so fucking lonely, but I'm also not lonely. I have friends but whenever I'm with them I feel like I don't fit in. I mean, growing up I was always the "black sheep" of everything. The odd and weird one. I mean, I've met people that I got along with, like in mh servers on discord, but it never lasts long. I hate it so much. I can never hold friendships. I get too attached and annoying too fast, and I'm aware of it but I can't help ittt. I've been told im too much or too less so I can never figured myself out.

I hate having no one to talk to, just sitting in my room like a loser. I want someone I can be a loser with together. Im so freaking lonely I REALLY want friends. Friends that won't leave after a week of chatting. Friends I can have deep talks with, have fun with and joke around.

Plz help im alsmot 19 this is so pathetic

Part of me wants to mention that you're 19, and being a young adult shouldn't necessarily mean that you've found your place to belong and your purpose yet. It's okay to still be finding yourself at this age. That said, I was told that same thing when I was 16. I was told "it gets better". 14 years later however, I kinda feel I was sold a false bill of goods. If you're attractive, find a way to develop confidence and charisma, and you find a social circle with shared values or interests, and you feel seen and like you belong amongst your peers, you've got a real chance. Something I've observed in both my generation as a millennial and in your younger zoomer generation however is a paradoxical "destigmatization" of mental illness, where you're allowed to identify yourself as moody, neurodivergent, or anxious, but the moment you're actually vulnerable and ACT mentally ill, people will often hate you and punish you for it.

I think that's what makes communities like these so attractive. I had one thread I started removed by moderation, I think the team misunderstood the purpose of it, and I did feel invalidated by that. However otherwise, this seems to be a community where we're allowed to be ourselves, and we're not harshly judged or shamed for not being okay.