Venting im so fucking fat

[ScaredCutter]

i just looked at myself from my camera and im so fat, i just cant believe it anymore, i thought i was losing some weight but no, IM FAT. i dont want to go on a scale, i cant even be on a fucking diet for even 10 mintues, i cant even exercise, i ant do anything. im a huge fucking slob, i eat junk food and i cant even slow down when i eat, i cant even gain a normal eating habit. i literally look like im a few months preg, im so fucking hideous. i wish i could go back in time and still be in the position where i stopped eating and ate so much less, i lost weight and it was noticeable for me, i felt cold and dizzy some times but omg i need to go back, IM SO FUCKING UGLY. my weight is my biggest insecurity (no pun), ive struggled with self image for SO LONG, THIS IS THE WORST HTING EVER. ill never love myself because my weight is always going up, i binged ate during lockdown and just gained everything back, i did it again around a year or 2 ago and nothings changed, im getting fat and NOTHING WORKS. i want ozempics, i want surgery to lose all this weight. there is ozempics in the hosue but its only for my dad. i used to go on edtwt and try copy peoples habit and days of calories to eat and foods/drinks to avoid and i cant stop falling back into being a fatass. all i see in my life is thin people, im jealous of every girl i see. i HATE beign fat, im scared of obsesity, im scared of getting an apron stomach, im gonna look like my mum next, visible double chin my dad, stomach that hangs over and the fat on his arms looks like its melting. i cant STAND this body no more, i hate my eating habits. i NEED and WANT to be restricted of food and forced to exercise, IM SO UGLY AND FAT. I WISH I DIDNT EXIST SO I COULD NEVER EAT. why am i built to just eat and eat, im always hugnry and this is the worst shit for me. i wish i had a fast metabolism like my brother, im cursed with this slow one that does JACK SHIT. my mum said id lose weight from puberty eventually, yeah im 18 and it has NEVER CAME, i hate liars. i wish my stomach couldnt handle food, i wish i could just NEVER eat.

crying from it because this weight affects me so bad, I HATE IT, i hate myself, i wish i just kepot eating less, i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE EATING.

NO amount of positivty will help me feel better, im fat and ugly and i know it, NOBODY will change that mindset for me until i lose weight and become thin. i can only somewhat like my body because of my boyfriend, other than that IM A HUGE FUCKING SLOB

 

[BrainSplatter]

Why don't you buy some of your own ozempic you can get it on DWMS

 

[ScaredCutter]

Why don't you buy some of your own ozempic you can get it on DWMS

im broke. im jobless. i dont get any money until my birthday and christmas and im saving it for something else. i dont know what DWMS is either, does it work in australia?

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

A regular person shouldn't administrate Ozempic on their own . It's a very complex med and must be monitored and adjusted as the treatment progresses.

Chances are you are going to mess with ur metabolism or ending more fat than when u started when you stop taking it.

 

[ScaredCutter]

A regular person shouldn't administrate Ozempic on their own . It's a very complex med and must be monitored and adjusted as the treatment progresses.

Chances are you are going to mess with ur metabolism or ending more fat than when u started when you stop taking it.

i see, i wont really do that then. is there any other option out there?

i dont have energy or motivation to execrise, even a little. i was going to get a dietitian at one point but i guess the idea was cancelled. i tried changing my eating habits but, i struggle with eating certain foods because im probably picky idk and i'll fall right back into being a slob eating junk food. the only thing that worked was me being lonely at school and afraid to eat around others, it caused me to lose weight and i brought the habit home but, i stopped doing that and just regained everything back.

 

[slitwristsbleedcold]

it may sound silly but you should try going to a nutritionist, my mom was overweight and has lost a lot of weight thanks to them

please don't be so hard on yourself

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

If it's a problem of eating a lot (not hormones or other), nutritionist should be first.

I know someone close that did a stomach reduction. But it's expensive and it is not like you can eat all you want. You must start with a regime 3 months prior and stick to it for 3 months more after the operation. Then you can start eating a "little bit of everything", as normal, but your rations will be 80% smaller. So imagine a dish of italian pasta but you can eat only a small portion. In the beginning it's easy because you can't eat more of this 20% rations. But with time if you fall into eating more and more (and it's nothing to be ashamed of, it happens to a lot of people with reduced stomachs) you will mess everything up.

What I want to say is that reducing ur stomach is not like "i will live the exact same life, but I will lose 50 Kgs".

 

[Macedonian1987]

i just looked at myself from my camera and im so fat, i just cant believe it anymore, i thought i was losing some weight but no, IM FAT. i dont want to go on a scale, i cant even be on a fucking diet for even 10 mintues, i cant even exercise, i ant do anything. im a huge fucking slob, i eat junk food and i cant even slow down when i eat, i cant even gain a normal eating habit. i literally look like im a few months preg, im so fucking hideous. i wish i could go back in time and still be in the position where i stopped eating and ate so much less, i lost weight and it was noticeable for me, i felt cold and dizzy some times but omg i need to go back, IM SO FUCKING UGLY. my weight is my biggest insecurity (no pun), ive struggled with self image for SO LONG, THIS IS THE WORST HTING EVER. ill never love myself because my weight is always going up, i binged ate during lockdown and just gained everything back, i did it again around a year or 2 ago and nothings changed, im getting fat and NOTHING WORKS. i want ozempics, i want surgery to lose all this weight. there is ozempics in the hosue but its only for my dad. i used to go on edtwt and try copy peoples habit and days of calories to eat and foods/drinks to avoid and i cant stop falling back into being a fatass. all i see in my life is thin people, im jealous of every girl i see. i HATE beign fat, im scared of obsesity, im scared of getting an apron stomach, im gonna look like my mum next, visible double chin my dad, stomach that hangs over and the fat on his arms looks like its melting. i cant STAND this body no more, i hate my eating habits. i NEED and WANT to be restricted of food and forced to exercise, IM SO UGLY AND FAT. I WISH I DIDNT EXIST SO I COULD NEVER EAT. why am i built to just eat and eat, im always hugnry and this is the worst shit for me. i wish i had a fast metabolism like my brother, im cursed with this slow one that does JACK SHIT. my mum said id lose weight from puberty eventually, yeah im 18 and it has NEVER CAME, i hate liars. i wish my stomach couldnt handle food, i wish i could just NEVER eat.

crying from it because this weight affects me so bad, I HATE IT, i hate myself, i wish i just kepot eating less, i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE EATING.

NO amount of positivty will help me feel better, im fat and ugly and i know it, NOBODY will change that mindset for me until i lose weight and become thin. i can only somewhat like my body because of my boyfriend, other than that IM A HUGE FUCKING SLOB

You are probably quite young, and let me give you an advice. An advice I wish I was given when I was a teenager. When I was a teenager I had the opposite problem - I was too skinny. I was a walking breathing skeleton and I used to hate my body. I hated my body back then because people (even my parents) were telling me all these rude comments about my appereance. One day I realized that no matter how much I try to please people, they will never say anything positive about me. So one day I said fuck it... I'm not going to live to please other people any more. I'm gonna start living as I best see fit, and I will stop caring about their comments. In time I began liking myself and the way my body looked like (even though I was still very skinny). As the decades passed by my metabolism slowed down and now I have the opposite problem. I'm beginning to become a bit overweight, but I don't care about that in the slightest. I'm gonna ctb in a year or two so....

 

[ScaredCutter]

You are probably quite young, and let me give you an advice. An advice I wish I was given when I was a teenager. When I was a teenager I had the opposite problem - I was too skinny. I was a walking breathing skeleton and I used to hate my body. I hated my body back then because people (even my parents) were telling me all these rude comments about my appereance. One day I realized that no matter how much I try to please people, they will never say anything positive about me. So one day I said fuck it... I'm not going to live to please other people any more. I'm gonna start living as I best see fit, and I will stop caring about their comments. In time I began liking myself and the way my body looked like (even though I was still very skinny). As the decades passed by my metabolism slowed down and now I have the opposite problem. I'm beginning to become a bit overweight, but I don't care about that in the slightest. I'm gonna ctb in a year or two so....

im glad that u eventually were able to feel happy about urself despite all the rude comments from others and family but, those kind of advices ive been told, just never done anything for me. ive tried feeling better about my own body and like always, it falls flat. i dont care about what others say about my weight (unless its those online groups who make seeing certain sizes as abnormal) but, im the only person who is putting myself down because of my weight. ive always had an image of how im supposed to look like. i used to hang around fairly skinny people and was super jealous because of their weight.

 

[Macedonian1987]

im glad that u eventually were able to feel happy about urself despite all the rude comments from others and family but, those kind of advices ive been told, just never done anything for me. ive tried feeling better about my own body and like always, it falls flat. i dont care about what others say about my weight (unless its those online groups who make seeing certain sizes as abnormal) but, im the only person who is putting myself down because of my weight. ive always had an image of how im supposed to look like. i used to hang around fairly skinny people and was super jealous because of their weight.

I used to be jealous too of my so-called friends who were more muscular than me. This jealousy was "fixed" when my life became riddled with chronic pain and I totally stopped caring about how I looked.

Try and accept yourself just the way you are. If you can, find a good nutritionists who will tell you what to eat and what to avoid eating. You will start losing weight this way, it will be a slow process, lasting a year or two, but the results will be there.