Venting I'm really scared of being alive

[anti-skooter]

I just distract myself lately with the internet I can't be without it without freaking out about being alive and breathing then freaking out about my future then freaking out about working for the rest of my life then freaking out about having to take proper care of my body for the rest of my life i just want to cry I don't want to do anything anymore I'm freaking out right now since I have to get up soon and actually try walking and talking and just being out idk I can't do this anymore especially for the rest of my life

 

[EmptyBottle]

Welcome to Sasu :3

What do u browse, if I may ask... and what would you like your web browsing levels to look like? These optional questions can help with goalsetting and similar.

Then box breathing 4-4-4-4 or similar combos of breathwork may assist with the anxiety.

Walking can indeed be relaxing btw.

 

[impendingdooom]

I just distract myself lately with the internet I can't be without it without freaking out about being alive and breathing then freaking out about my future then freaking out about working for the rest of my life then freaking out about having to take proper care of my body for the rest of my life i just want to cry I don't want to do anything anymore I'm freaking out right now since I have to get up soon and actually try walking and talking and just being out idk I can't do this anymore especially for the rest of my life

i feel the same way. it feels comforting and also sad to hear that you feel the exact same way. i thought i might've been the only one. i'm so scared. i can't do this, i don't wanna do this. i don't want to conform, i don't want to slave away in this stupid society. fuck the system, fuck all corporations, fuck this! it's so fucking bleak. i don't wanna do all that. staying alive is terrifying. the thought of submitting myself to that is wretched. i too just keep distracting myself with the internet and i'm sure it's the only reason i'm stable(ish) right now. rn i'm autistically attatched to the game heartopia and it's really working to keep me distracted from the daunting world around me

 

[anti-skooter]

i feel the same way. it feels comforting and also sad to hear that you feel the exact same way. i thought i might've been the only one. i'm so scared. i can't do this, i don't wanna do this. i don't want to conform, i don't want to slave away in this stupid society. fuck the system, fuck all corporations, fuck this! it's so fucking bleak. i don't wanna do all that. staying alive is terrifying. the thought of submitting myself to that is wretched. i too just keep distracting myself with the internet and i'm sure it's the only reason i'm stable(ish) right now. rn i'm autistically attatched to the game heartopia and it's really working to keep me distracted from the daunting world around me

Yes!!! Big reason why I feel this way!! Why live a life like this （ｉ__ｉ）???