I’m pathetic.

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I want to die to escape from reality and rest, but I don't have enough courage to endure the pain or damage that follows from the failed attempt. I'm afraid of the brain damage if I don't die at once, I'm afraid what my family will say, I'm afraid of the pain when I cut or hang myself. I know I'm pathetic and so much a coward but my life is such a burden to live on.

 

[Ghost2211]

Nothing you said is pathetic of cowardice. None of this is easy even when we're in pain.

 

[Aimless]

Suicide is scary, you're literally going against your own subconscious which wants to live. Don't feel bad about being afraid, most of us are.

 

[ZardozOmega]

I'm pathetic too

 

[Heart Shards]

Dealing with heavy shit doesn't make you pathetic, it makes you strong. You got a lot of your plate--a buffet. It's easy to be critical of yourself. Your amongst family, hugs--Willow.

 

[peacechoice]

I understand. Don't feel pathetic. In that case I am too. I am pathetic. I want to die, but I can't find a way to do it peacefully. I hope you find your peace. I wish I could. Don't be afraid . I don't understand how people can call us and tell us we should live like this. I no longer feel like it. I am tired as is everyone else here.

 

[Kassender]

I feel exactly the same.

I should have done it months ago.
I'd say it's about my family but deep down i know they'll move on.

It's obvious i'm just a pussy. Weak.
A coward.

I mean how is 40 more years of shit less terrifying than 3 minutes of pain ?

I hate myself so much.

 

[Aimless]

I feel exactly the same.

I should have done it months ago.
I'd say it's about my family but deep down i know they'll move on.

It's obvious i'm just a pussy. Weak.
A coward.

I mean how is 40 more years of shit less terrifying than 3 minutes of pain ?

I hate myself so much.

It's because when it actually comes down to it and you try to commit suicide, you start to wonder what could go wrong, and what is going to happen after you die, and then it seems really easy to decide 'I'll try again later' because you can always change your mind after choosing not to ctb, but not the other way around.