Venting I'm going to CTB today and it gives me peace of mind and terrifies me at the same time

[seaquake]

I wish I could eat, but I need to keep the fast. I've been listening to some nostalgic music since morning and I'm not that excited. I plan on CTB at 2:30 to make sure I have plenty of time without being discovered and to have a second glass in case I vomit. I can't wait to reach peace and never have to wake up again. but in a way, I'm mourning the life I couldn't have lived, the things I've lost and will lose, even if my life is more torture than good. I guess it's the SI kicking

 

[SVEN]

Whatever you decide, every good wish for your finding peace and rest. I hope all goes well with you.

 

[deadbidaylight]

My heart is with you. You aren't alone, and I truly hope that you are able to find the peace you are searching for.

SI is a real thing. And remember, there is no shame in changing your mind. It's not a race, and there is always another time should this one not work out. There is nothing wrong with realizing it's not your time.

I wish you peace in whatever option you choose today. You're in my thoughts.

 

[IDontKnowEverything]

It is your choice. Never pick either because of obligation, rather pick the one that feels the most right for you.
Be it in life or in death, may you find a feeling similar to respite, yet that lasts.

 

[failedmind]

Wishing you all the best. We are here for you

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I truly wish you will find the love and peace you deserve, whether it be in this life, or the next. All the best, sending love your way.

 

[Nobody'sHero]

Thank you for showing me the lonely, I reverse searched the image after seeing your profile and then listened to the album. When I listened to it if felt like I could somewhat understand your pain and it made me reflect on mine. I hope you find the peace that you deserve, I'm sorry it had to be this way... I'm sorry for the pain you have experienced...

 

[FuneralCry]

I just want peace from the suffering as well, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[maniac116]

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I hope you reach the peace you deserve.

 

[funtimes]

Sorry to hear. Only few can understand how you got here.