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remington203

remington203

too chicken to shoot myself so i'm hanging
Oct 18, 2020
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I've come down to ctb by partial hanging tonight(between 12 am and 9 am) after 9 months of planning, and i've found the sweet spot. hope my motivation is strong enough to overcome SI because I've certainly got to go before monday. i'm listening to some music on my journey to help myself relax and hope that all goes well. i've scheduled all my emails in advance too.

might get drunk to help with SI, any advice or shared experiences would be great there!

any tips or last words? I'm stalling right now and would appreciate something nice :)
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
6,015
It's nice to meet you. You're hello and goodbye are the same post! I would loved to get to know you. I do hope your journey is peaceful, and brings relief.
 
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remington203

too chicken to shoot myself so i'm hanging
Oct 18, 2020
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It's nice to meet you. You're hello and goodbye are the same post! I would loved to get to know you. I do hope your journey is peaceful, and brings relief.
Nice to meet you too! I've been lurking this website for a while before joining and came across a lot of your postings. You are such a lovely and deserving person! xx
 
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Okami

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Mar 16, 2018
134
Hello. I hope all goes well and you find the peace you desire.
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,234
I wish you the best. You need to put as much weight as possible on the rope right away and try to hold it as long as possible. Good journey...
 
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Lux

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Sep 17, 2020
61
Good luck on your journey! Best wishes to you!

Not sure about your taste of music but metal actually relaxes me.
My last song will be "Return Of The Arsonist" by Blood Command
 
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remington203

too chicken to shoot myself so i'm hanging
Oct 18, 2020
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Good luck on your journey! Best wishes to you!

Not sure about your taste of music but metal actually relaxes me.
My last song will be "Return Of The Arsonist" by Blood Command
I like metal too! i'll check your song out. i'm open to all kinds of music, right now i'm digging A Perfect Circle, mazzy star, slipknot..
 
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imdone1

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Oct 11, 2020
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Good luck to you, I hope you find peace! Apart from songs, frequencies with the purpose of inducing relaxation can directly help as well! If you'd like, put on alpha and/or theta waves.
 
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remington203

too chicken to shoot myself so i'm hanging
Oct 18, 2020
17
Good luck to you, I hope you find peace! Apart from songs, frequencies with the purpose of inducing relaxation can directly help as well! If you'd like, put on alpha and/or theta waves.
i like that idea!
 
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x~Sophia~x

Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
Sep 10, 2020
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remington203 how are you, are you still with us?
 
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Nice to meet you too! I've been lurking this website for a while before joining and came across a lot of your postings. You are such a lovely and deserving person! xx
Just like to wish you well with it.
 
Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
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Remington? Are you there? Someone was here today around 2 p.m.
 
Emily_Numb

Emily_Numb

Wizard
Jan 14, 2020
654
I wish you the very best and a peaceful exit if that is what you have chosen. As someone who has failed not one but two partial hangings all I can say is the issue has never been with the ligature or pressure point, but with what I've tied it to. I'm about 140lbs and have ripped door handles out of solid wood doors and busted solid wood spindles on stairwells. It's totally put me off partial to be honest but you seem to have a plan, I did too but perhaps yours is a better one. I trust you find some peace. x
 
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Rn110bg101

I want to go home
Apr 18, 2019
412
Goodnight, I hope you'll find peace.
 
Deathbydemo

Deathbydemo

Mage
Feb 15, 2020
518
I truly hope you are able to find peace and I wish you the best with your decision. I'm sorry we didn't get the chance to know you better. Safe journey to the other side, my friend.
 
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fearmenot

Member
Oct 25, 2020
89
Good luck finding the sweet spot, I tried to do it and it felt like my head was going to explode. I've tried one more time since then and I still can't hit the right spot
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
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i hope no pain...good travel
 
Throwmyselfaway

Throwmyselfaway

Not gone yet but soon
Jan 14, 2020
797
Hello there! Listen to some music before and during. Most of us have playlist already set. I wish you a peaceful journey (hugs)
 

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