I’m a crybaby and I hate it

[trying ungracefully]

Does anyone else cry so much over the littlest things? How do you stop? Journaling helps a bit but then I go back to crying or I cry in the middle of journaling.

Memories get brought up and it makes me want to cry even though I was happy a moment before. Right now it was the memory of me coming back from residential at 12 and some guy saying "damn you got fat". I was on medication and that place started my emotional eating because it was so comforting there. 3 meals and 2 snacks a day and we were watched on what we ate.

I'm still fat and can't control my eating and it's why the words hurt and has me crying. I am on medication to help it, metformin, but it's only helping me maintain weight and honestly I might have gained I haven't weighed myself in a bit. I'm just so insecure and have been getting more insecure over time which makes me cry.

I just want to stop crying, idk anything about zodiacs but I like to blame it on me being a cancer because I guess they are emotional lol. But I know it can be managed I just don't know how.

 

[Zardoz]

Did this get worse since you started taking the Metformin? That stuff really didn't agree with me, I was shaking with anger and rage at nothing, wanting to smash my apartment up, my head full of fear, paranoia and anxiety at nothing. It was hell. I stopped taking it. The docs said it was a well tolerated drug and brushed my reports of my bad reaction to it aside, but I found plenty of reports online about it turning previously calm people into raging angry unstable head cases. I think it can make people emotionally unstable.

 

[lasttogo]

I cry over everything. I'm talking snot pouring out my nose, screaming, convulsing. My advice would be to find a good way to process your trauma. Some people find therapy helps, some people don't. When I cry like this, it is almost always because I am : A) in a traumatic situation. B) I am in a perceived or remembered traumatic situation because of past trauma I haven't been able to process. I think when we have so much trauma built up in our bodies, we either deal with this by crying often, or not crying at all. It's like a defense mechanism.



Zodiacs are interesting. When you say you are a cancer, you are talking about where your sun is in the tropical readings. Astrology, in this type, splits who you are into the different planets. Your sun is cancer. Sun is said to define how you are perceived outwardly. This is only one facet of you. You also have a moon sign, a Venus sign, and etc. in this type of reading, the planets account for different areas or categories of your life. I won't yap too much about it but it is a fun rabbit hole to go down if you are at all inclined.

 

[trying ungracefully]

Did this get worse since you started taking the Metformin? That stuff really didn't agree with me, I was shaking with anger and rage at nothing, wanting to smash my apartment up, my head full of fear, paranoia and anxiety at nothing. It was hell. I stopped taking it. The docs said it was a well tolerated drug and brushed my reports of my bad reaction to it aside, but I found plenty of reports online about it turning previously calm people into raging angry unstable head cases. I think it can make people emotionally unstable.

No I've always been kind of unstable since I was a kid. I tolerated metformin well other than the GI side effects. I'm sorry that it gave you such a bad reaction though, doctors should take information like that more seriously.

My advice would be to find a good way to process your trauma.

Yeah I think therapy is good I just forget about things or don't think they are a big deal and then there is just so much to talk about and do and I tend to focus more on the biggest issue of me not going outside.

I think when we have so much trauma built up in our bodies, we either deal with this by crying often, or not crying at all. It's like a defense mechanism.

That makes sense. It's hard for me to process trauma until later or it doesn't come at all. And i know even though you don't process fully it still effects you. Maybe a trauma dump but a girl I was friends with choked me on the playground and I didn't think twice about it until I was an adult lmao. That's how bad it is.

I definitely probably have to talk more about things to process even if I don't see them as a big deal though. Trauma sticks until you manage it lol.

Also I looked into zodiacs and I got my chart but it's so hard to remember everything and there is so much to it. I looked at the generated info one time but idk how accurate that is. I would definitely want to see someone one day who can tell me more about it but idk who to trust because there are many scammers.

 

[lasttogo]

No I've always been kind of unstable since I was a kid. I tolerated metformin well other than the GI side effects. I'm sorry that it gave you such a bad reaction though, doctors should take information like that more seriously.

Yeah I think therapy is good I just forget about things or don't think they are a big deal and then there is just so much to talk about and do and I tend to focus more on the biggest issue of me not going outside.

That makes sense. It's hard for me to process trauma until later or it doesn't come at all. And i know even though you don't process fully it still effects you. Maybe a trauma dump but a girl I was friends with choked me on the playground and I didn't think twice about it until I was an adult lmao. That's how bad it is.

I definitely probably have to talk more about things to process even if I don't see them as a big deal though. Trauma sticks until you manage it lol.

Also I looked into zodiacs and I got my chart but it's so hard to remember everything and there is so much to it. I looked at the generated info one time but idk how accurate that is. I would definitely want to see someone one day who can tell me more about it but idk who to trust because there are many scammers.

I feel you on forgetting. Therapy doesn't work too well for me because I am constantly forgetting, or blocking out, or not understanding it was trauma for the things that I actually haven't processed. It took me 5 years to realize I was sa'd LOL I thought that it was a communication breakdown and not a big deal(I said no and stop). So you are definitely not alone there.


My personal opinion is if you have to pay someone to walk you through your chart(s), you have been scammed. I feel the same on charging people for things like tarot readings. Those types of practices are so deeply personal, turning it in to a transaction makes it worth less. If money is involved, then selling practices are involved. Books are a good way to learn, but so is Google. It is definitely an overwhelming rabbit hole. Friends or acquaintances that study it in their spare time would be the best way to get your chart read. It will be the most authentic and personal