If you think you got it right, you got it wrong and it wraps itself around until it's gone

[Surai]

Everything. Everything I thought I knew. And you who thought they could say. Could say. You could couldn't you. You couldn't have. You did. Say this was the right way. This was the correct way. This was. What was isn't now. What's now is what was. If for a second think it makes you better because you think it does. Does what you think really matter? Everyone wants to believe they got it right. Think their life is right. Nothing, there is nothing. Are good people rewarded? When all I do is try to do it right.

When all I do is try to be good. Why am I not rewarded? Because this life doesn't decide what is right or wrong as long as we survive for as long as possible. We do. Its because we decided to pick what was right or wrong. Why do you think that, well it's for the collective society as a whole. Do you really think people work for society as a whole? Why Do we suffer more than the "worst" who ever existed. It's just a label we put on. But nature doesn't do a background check. This world is eating itself. How can we live when we know we could suffer more than the worst who ever existed. They could have made it more obvious. If they wanted me to believe. That if I did right I would be rewarded. At least make it visible. At least a few melting faces. Just to give us a sign, that we were being listened to. But no. There is no right way to live.

I just hope.
I just hope it isn't too painful

Is there a right way to die?

I just hope
I just hope we make it out of here