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AbsurdAbyss

AbsurdAbyss

Lost, broken, empty, fragmented.
Mar 4, 2024
113
I feel like there's always so much more I could say but for some reason cannot - my words seem to betray me as much as I trust them. Every time I want to say something, I'm reminded of all the things that have gone wrong and could go wrong every time I've ever said it and wil say it. A burden that gets tougher to bear with each passing day. Was it miscommunication or a misunderstanding, was it me or them? Haunted by endless questions and the answers doesn't even matter because we've had this conversation before and its always already over before it begins. I don't want to be remembered - I just want to be recognized, even if for a moment, as I am. I don't want to be seen - I just want to disappear, as if I never existed to anybody who couldn't recognize me. An impossibility as long as I exist - people only ever see what they want to see. Drowning in failed dreams and dead memories, I'm left with self hatred to the point of self annihilation - I hope my death brings an end to this mess that is my life. If any of this makes sense to you and you want nothing more than death - PM me if you want, I don't want to be (alone) here any more than you do.
 
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sos

sos

Specialist
Jul 22, 2024
311
seems like you're in a position in which you've not only lost trust in the world, but in yourself as well

and that sure does suck

i do hope that you find peace in some kind of way

whether that be by catching the bus, or perhaps finding a path to happiness
 
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Randy Savage

Randy Savage

“Macho Man”
Jul 23, 2024
47
I'm sorry you're feeling this way. People are shit, and the memories you make with them hurt so much when you realize you'll never get that again.
Wishing you well, I hope you find your way out of this.
 
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