Venting if i were a real girl

[lanadelreyisgod223]

If i were a real girl, i could go outside and wear whatever i wanted without feeling like a tall disgusting broad man cross dressing in women's clothes. i wouldn't have to see my disgustingly large hands and feet everyday. i could look in the mirror and see someone i actually like, not a disgusting ogre crossdresser looking back at me. my presence is inherently predatory and repulsive. i wouldn't have to pretend to not see the looks of disgust from strangers. i wouldn't have to tell myself that they aren't staring, whispering, and laughing. people wouldn't scream f@ggot at me. my family wouldn't have to be uncomfortable every time i'm around them, they wouldn't have to play pretend with my delusions. everyday i wonder why i was cursed with this body and life, what does anyone do to deserve this? it all feels like a cruel joke. i have to constantly lie to myself and pretend i'm okay, when all i want to do is rip my skin and body into shreds, until there's nothing left of me.

 

[COP2CON]

I'm so sorry your treated this way. Its unfortunately so common for so many. I don't have many words for you other than your beautiful and there is nothing wrong with trying to express yourself, your feelings, and your identity. I heard this from someone and it really lasted for me. One can be straight but not narrow. Just because someone experiences life differently does not mean that person should be put down. Open minds and open hearts can do a lot of good. I'm sorry for how you feel, its not right. I am the demographic that perpetuates a lot of this hate, a former cop where it was and is unaccepted, a current prisoner where it is also unaccepted, from a home where it was unaccepted. If I can open my mind and be accepting then literally anyone can. Remember, most of the people putting you down are the ones who are truly weak and will lead unfulfilling lives because of how narrow their minds are. Again your beautiful and you matter. I hope one day you find a place where you can see and feel that. I'm sorry if I got preachy.... I've become really bothered with society lately.