• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

CaringShrimp

CaringShrimp

Shrimping around
Nov 20, 2022
48
Heii, I'm in need of advice to ensure not being found when I decide to ctb. My problems are:

- I'm physically disabled and cannot go far by myself
- I live with my boyfriend who is fully aware of me being suicidal
- He does not work or leave the house usually since I rely on him
- I do not have any friends or family that I could pretend to 'visit'

Maybe one of you kind souls has an idea how I can come up with a secure plan for a peaceful journey ♡
Much love to all of you!
 
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
Reactions: Forever Sleep, sadstuffie, Per Ardua Ad Astra and 2 others
W

Wunderkind

❤️Travel by bus
Nov 25, 2022
192
Perhaps there is an option to come up with something while your boyfriend is sleeping? Create the appearance that you are moving to the restroom, are you mobile?
 
  • Love
Reactions: CaringShrimp
CaringShrimp

CaringShrimp

Shrimping around
Nov 20, 2022
48
Perhaps there is an option to come up with something while your boyfriend is sleeping? Create the appearance that you are moving to the restroom, are you mobile?
Thank you so much for the idea, it would work at night. However, I'm too afraid of him getting up randomly and finding me too early :( Stan's guide mentioned a time of death anywhere from 40min - up to 4 hours while other sources mention that it could take much longer than that. It scares me and I don't want to put myself in stressful situations when my final moments are supposed to be gentle and peaceful.
 
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
Reactions: Per Ardua Ad Astra, Dead Meat and 710
Jarni

Jarni

Love is a toothache in the heart. H.Heine
Dec 12, 2020
383
Maybe send him to buy a medication far from your home... Or if he has parents maybe he can see them without you..
 
  • Love
Reactions: CaringShrimp
J

Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
405
I don't think SN is a good choice if you cant be alone for at least 4 hours
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: jessisme and CaringShrimp
CaringShrimp

CaringShrimp

Shrimping around
Nov 20, 2022
48
Maybe send him to buy a medication far from your home... Or if he has parents maybe he can see them without you..
Thanks, I thought about that too! I will do my best to be patient and wait for him to leave for a day.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Jarni and Dead Meat
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,994
Is SN the only method you are considering?
 
Per Ardua Ad Astra

Per Ardua Ad Astra

Malpractice: NeuroDystrophy-Paralysis-Meds-Injured
Sep 27, 2022
3,639
Heii, I'm in need of advice to ensure not being found when I decide to ctb. My problems are:

- I'm physically disabled and cannot go far by myself
- I live with my boyfriend who is fully aware of me being suicidal
- He does not work or leave the house usually since I rely on him
- I do not have any friends or family that I could pretend to 'visit'

Maybe one of you kind souls has an idea how I can come up with a secure plan for a peaceful journey ♡
Much love to all of you!

I'm so sorry 💔
I'm in similar situation

I tried to secretly OD twice but failed
( before finding SS )

My disabilities have worsened so options are nearly zero

I hope you find a way to a peaceful journey 🙏
 
  • Love
  • Hugs
Reactions: CaringShrimp and donealready
👁

👁️👃👁️

Enlightened
Aug 14, 2022
1,292
Most people die from SN in under an hour.
 
  • Love
Reactions: CaringShrimp
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,994
It is the method I feel most comfortable with c:
Well, you need to come up with some ploy in order to get him out of the house for as long as possible.
 
  • Love
Reactions: CaringShrimp
S

SamTam33

Warlock
Oct 9, 2022
763
You have the cutest username and avatar on all of SS. I've been wanting to share that.

Do you live in a country/city that supports the disabled in the form of transportation? In the U.S, there's this group called Catholic Charities that will transport you wherever you want to go for a few bucks. Usually within a certain radius.

Storage units are fairly cheap and can be rented on a monthly basis. Some have deals that are one dollar for your first month.

You may be able to rent a unit for some privacy and have a cab service drop you off there.

People sometimes (illegally) live in these units. So I've always imagined that if I were in a similar situation of living with someone, I'd rent one for a place to escape to, regardless of if I were trying to ctb or not.
 
  • Love
Reactions: CaringShrimp

Similar threads

FreedomElsewhere
Replies
9
Views
618
Suicide Discussion
LostLily
LostLily
loslassen
Replies
0
Views
193
Suicide Discussion
loslassen
loslassen
kdraft
Replies
8
Views
576
Suicide Discussion
Binderz
B
FreedomElsewhere
Replies
1
Views
292
Suicide Discussion
Novaaa
Novaaa
miles-away
Replies
5
Views
731
Offtopic
bankai
bankai