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"Oh God, I’m so depressed." - Marvin
- Nov 24, 2023
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i don't wanna hurt my family and friends. i feel so selfish. i feel like my life still has a fix, i could maybe have a normal life, but i've messed up some stuff and it's gonna take sooo much work from me. Maybe i'm just lazy. I feel like i could put some effort and get my life together, but everything has gone so wrong lately.
i feel so unmotivated and tired. I am exhausted of trying and not getting anything in return. I know that i have my try my best for life, but i wish i could have a break. i wish things could start working out for me. So many times i had hope and decided to stick longer but i always end up hurt and hope does nothing for me. I just life to motivate me somehow, i'm so tired of failure and making myself believe in a better future
there's also the fact that the next months of my life would be hell. just working to pay bills and in a job i dislike. and then maybe id have chance of getting a job in my field, which is really hard to find. even tho its also my own fault for this all. i feel like i have no forces left in me for that
i feel so unmotivated and tired. I am exhausted of trying and not getting anything in return. I know that i have my try my best for life, but i wish i could have a break. i wish things could start working out for me. So many times i had hope and decided to stick longer but i always end up hurt and hope does nothing for me. I just life to motivate me somehow, i'm so tired of failure and making myself believe in a better future
there's also the fact that the next months of my life would be hell. just working to pay bills and in a job i dislike. and then maybe id have chance of getting a job in my field, which is really hard to find. even tho its also my own fault for this all. i feel like i have no forces left in me for that
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