dropdeadfred
Boarding the bus to Everlasting Dreamland ♡
- Oct 19, 2020
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Full suspension as to not back out, but I can't intentionally hurt the only person I love by leaving in such a way. IDGAF about the rest, though... (except my mother, the poor dear. She'll never understand.)
Instead, I'll have to drown or die in some other accidental seeming way. I already failed my last attempt at doing so. I can't get over the impending feeling that it's going to be painful; that CTB is never going to feel right no matter what. So fucked. I fucking hate myself for not being able to cope. Fuck me.
Instead, I'll have to drown or die in some other accidental seeming way. I already failed my last attempt at doing so. I can't get over the impending feeling that it's going to be painful; that CTB is never going to feel right no matter what. So fucked. I fucking hate myself for not being able to cope. Fuck me.
