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TransTaxEvader

TransTaxEvader

what's next?
Feb 22, 2025
257
i have literally nothing. but it's still so difficult.

i wish someone could kill me instead.

I cant stop crying while typing this

my life is over but i cant fucking end it
 
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SchrodingerIsDed

SchrodingerIsDed

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Feb 17, 2025
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pathetic failure

Member
Feb 28, 2025
69
Same here,it's so scary.I don't know your personal beliefs but I am an atheist so for me after I do it, it's over,no closure no heaven nothing.Sometimes I wish I believed in some religion so this could be easier for me
 
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anonymousperson

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Feb 27, 2025
35
Same, I wish it was easier. Assisted dying should be legal and accessible to all. I actually feel envious when others die randomly, why can't it be me?! Especially if they didn't want to die and I do. It really takes a lot to go through with it.
 
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TransTaxEvader

TransTaxEvader

what's next?
Feb 22, 2025
257
Same here,it's so scary.I don't know your personal beliefs but I am an atheist so for me after I do it, it's over,no closure no heaven nothing.Sometimes I wish I believed in some religion so this could be easier for me
i feel like believing in religion would make it worse.

every religion i know of with the exception of norse paganism, you are punished. either with an awful next life or eternal pain and suffering worse than ever thought possible, skin melting off of bone and growing back to have it happen again etc.

i would call myself agnostic personally so I'm just scared of it ending, i dont know what is next.
 
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pathetic failure

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Feb 28, 2025
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i feel like believing in religion would make it worse.

every religion i know of with the exception of norse paganism, you are punished. either with an awful next life or eternal pain and suffering worse than ever thought possible, skin melting off of bone and growing back to have it happen again etc.

i would call myself agnostic personally so I'm just scared of it ending, i dont know what is next.
True I didn't think of that.I forgot most religions punish you for ctb.If I remember correctly ctb is the only unforgivable sin in Christianity.I am not against religion or anything but a religion that says ctb is worse than r@pe or murder shouldn't be allowed to be preached.If a god truly exists I am sure he wouldn't approve such bullshit except if he is an evil one which wouldn't surprise me to be honest
 
GettingGone

GettingGone

Chasing the Bus
Oct 19, 2024
25
I feel like everytime I work up the nerve to finally ctb, something little and stupid stops me. And I hate it. Because I know that within a week, I'll be right back where I was. Desperately depressed and suicidal. I hate it.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand as all I personally hope for is to not exist, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing, I see so much cruelty in how there isn't the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, all I wish for is to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find peace from suffering.
 

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