Discussion I wish I was other people

[fkyou]

I'm just a twisted person..does anyone else look at other functional people and wish they were them instead of themselves..I used to look at those kids in university and wish I was either one of them..I wish I wasn't me..I had this sickening feeling of depression since childhood.. it feels like a gloomy day..

 

[M_E_S]

Yes, as though they have knowledge of a hidden world or secrets to happiness I'm completely illiterate of and unable to feel.

 

[itsgone2]

100%. Definitely something different about me. Just not as comfortable as others. Could never just relax and take things a day at a time. Finally caught up to me now and I hate it.

 

[Unlucky777]

Yes I do this a lot. Only recently though did I start doing this after I lost my sense of self and self worth.

 

[ScaredtoTry]

Yes, especially on the holidays. All you see is happy families buying lots of presents and having giant feasts. I wish I could be like them so badly

 

[cakedog]

I've also felt like this since childhood
looking back i realized how bad my life was (and still is). I was poor, lived in a dysfunctional home and matured later than others
i really envy how others have it so easy

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Yes I do this a lot. Only recently though did I start doing this after I lost my sense of self and self worth.

I used to think I was better than others, turns out I am much worse

 

[itsgone2]

I used to think I was better than others, turns out I am much worse

Painfully, I have to agree with this. Someone would do one thing wrong and I'd just completely dismiss them. Now I look and see they were doing hundreds of things right that I was doing wrong. And I had no idea, which is even more stupid. Yes, I also feel I'm much worse than everyone I know

 

[Unlucky777]

I used to think I was better than others, turns out I am much worse

I used to think I was doing pretty OK also until age 30. Now 15 years later at 45 I feel like I'm bottom of the barrel material. I feel absolutely useless and worthless now. I don't even recognize who I am anymore.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I used to think I was doing pretty OK also until age 30. Now 15 years later at 45 I feel like I'm bottom of the barrel material. I feel absolutely useless and worthless now. I don't even recognize who I am anymore.

We become what we do. The (sometimes) excellent me from my school days went away without structure. I started quitting and now the only thing left to quit is life.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I think, inside, everyone is the same. Switch places with someone who looks like they're having a great life and guess what. It's just as bad as mine. I'm sure of it.