Venting I wish I could just press a restart button

[foreverclear]

I think about it all the time. I imagine myself restarting at life, being my seven year old self again but this time knowing what to do. I know it's not possible, and that's what hurts even more. I can't go back, I can't undo the things I've already done or said. I just want a reset. I feel guilt and shame every day. I wish I had someone in my life to guide me, I have no one who really gets me it feels like. I wish I was better as a kid too, even though I hate to blame her. I had no talent, no goals, I wasn't encouraged or held or pushed to be great. I wish I was. I wish I could reset.

 

[itsgone2]

I imagine myself restarting at life, being my seven year old self again but this time knowing what to do.

Same. Wanting a reset. Knowing what to do now is so painful. Not blaming my parents but they never taught me anything. Life isn't that complicated, I should have done better anyway, but maybe you had a similar experience.

 

[Hollowman]

Me too, life could've been great.

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

I wish my life was great, it was back then, but now it's been 7 years of me being extremely depressed (depression means something like feeling empty, lack of motivation on anything, and does not really mean sadness). I literally have no idea what caused it, I try to remember, but I can't remember.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Many of us wish that … I'd wish a time machine would exist

 

[lost in the lilies]

I know what you mean. I think if I really could be granted one wish it would be to be able to wake up somewhere totally new where not a single person knows me. Free to just start fresh, live & carry myself the way I please without all of this weighing me down.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

The defining feeling of my life. It would have been easy to live rightly. Why did I do what I did instead?

 

[reticulator]

Haha yeah me too but that would be cheating wouldn't it. We all have to live with (or die with) the fuck ups that we have incurred in life. I bet most people serving life sentences would do anything to go back also, but there's no do overs or save restarts unfortunately.

The defining feeling of my life. It would have been easy to live rightly. Why did I do what I did instead?

Although in my case I'm not sure I could have done too much better. I'll always have mental illness and bipolar, and even if I was rich like Kanye I would still suffer like him.

I guess I would have told myself to buy up all the bitcoin in 2010 and I'd be rich now, life would be a lot easier but there would still always be this emptiness I feel.

 

[Karrikin]

It's a shame time moves only forward.

 

[kufajoy]

I would love to restart my life with a matched body and memory from previous life. Such a shame not going to happen

 

[haihaihai]

i've always thought abt going back in time and fixing all the mistakes i've made, restarting would be such a dream

 

[Spite]

Me too. And if such a restart button were to exist and I was able to press it, I wish I could start life over again as a normal, neurotypical person. Going through life as an autistic person is hell.

 

[Jun123]

Same I wish for that everyday. Though I don't think i could handle being a kid again. I wish I could go back about a year and a half, cause I feel like that was about the time, I started to ruin my life. If I went back to that time of my life and correct all my mistakes that would be so amazing. I'd do everything to get an opportunity like that.

 

[reticulator]

I don't know if it would help in my case. I have severe bipolar, and I am what I am. I would probably crash out no matter how many times. I could do things over

I don't know if it would help in my case. I have severe bipolar, and I am what I am. I would probably crash out no matter how many times. I could do things over

Only thing I can think of is to go back and buy up all the BTC I could manage; and become rich but I'd spend it all during a manic episode anyway haha

I don't know if it would help in my case. I have severe bipolar, and I am what I am. I would probably crash out no matter how many times. I could do things over

Only thing I can think of is to go back and buy up all the BTC I could manage; and become rich but I'd spend it all during a manic episode anyway haha

And even being rich isn't a good cure for BPD. Look at Ye

 

[woodlandcreature]

a reset would fix nothing for me. doomed from the start. should have never been born. shouldn't have even tried at life.

 

[RainyDays]

There are days where I wish I was born in to a different family.