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Knbmt

Knbmt

Animallover
Jun 10, 2023
18
I suffered from OCD and depression since I was a child. don't know the cause of it...
I couldn't adapt to both high school and college and quit. I started trading crypto in my early 20s.
The small money gradually increased to 100 million dollars. (0.1billion) Trading was hard and stressful but happy to see my money
I live with my parents. They often fight over trifles. The fight got in the way of my trading. So I asked them to restrain themselves.
I even told them to quit their job and rest at home . cause they've worked hard all their lives
Finally The big day, i couldn't process the crypto order because trying to break up their fight.
I suffered big losses . hell began. Depression and OCD got worse
My trading failed more and more. Eventually sold a Porsche that I couldn't even test drive (because I was busy) and
I borrowed money my parent's house as collateral . I lost all money again cause I couldn't control my restless mind. I became a debtor.
2 years passed, I still resent my parents . If you're like me, could you forgive your parents? Now I have to earn more money to go to Mexico(for got n) lol :pfff:
im worried about my two old cats if I die.. really worried. my son and daughter.. :'(I had a lot of things I wanted to do in my 20s . but now i can't .. i did my best. I just resent God.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,437
If you are able to get N then you are fortunate, but I just find it so awful how existing here can very easily get much worse, existing truly is so hellish. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.
 
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Never Alive

Never Alive

Death is like the wind, always by my side
Nov 22, 2022
125
Why didn't you move out..? Your parents were just in your way and not giving you peace. Rich and in 20's, nothing better.
Did you just quit college or also high school?
,,I had a lot of things I wanted to do in my 20s . but now i can't .. i did my best.", I feel this alot.
 
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Knbmt

Knbmt

Animallover
Jun 10, 2023
18
Why didn't you move out..? Your parents were just in your way and not giving you peace. Rich and in 20's, nothing better.
Did you just quit college or also high school?
,,I had a lot of things I wanted to do in my 20s . but now i can't .. i did my best.", I feel this alot.
Because they did the housework for me . I regret not moving too 😵💫I should have hired a housekeeper
 
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