Venting I wanted to kill myself before having to go back to work but I failed...

[zdeweilx]

I'm supposed to go back to work on Monday... i was dreading this since the start of the holidays and now we're already there. It's crazy how fast time can go when you'd like it to slow down.

I've tried to kill myself on new years eve but i failed miserably and i regret it so damn much. Now i have to go through this anxiety and stress again because work is resuming soon. I no longer have any day of paid leave left until next summer.

Just thinking about how i'll have to force myself to be an hypocrite so i can "socialize" with arseholes that are called my "coworkers" legit makes me want to die so much.

I should have died on that day... but i can still do it before Monday right ? I have to do it... i have to die, it's the only way to stop my suffering.

 

[amor.dor]

Maybe you don't want to die. Maybe you want to kill what poisons your soul and hurts you — the lies of this world. But that's something only you can do, in extreme sincerity and solitude?

 

[zdeweilx]

Maybe you don't want to die. Maybe you want to kill what poisons your soul and hurts you — the lies of this world. But that's something only you can do, in extreme sincerity and solitude?

I want to die... this world isn't made for me. I will attempt again on Sunday night with a different method.

 

[amor.dor]

I want to die... this world isn't made for me. I will attempt again on Sunday night with a different method.

No judgment here. Just think it over well. If it's truly what you want, I respect your choice and wish you peace.Don't rush.

 

[zdeweilx]

No judgment here. Just think it over well. If it's truly what you want, I respect your choice and wish you peace.Don't rush.

Thank you. I just want to stop suffering...

 

[-RedBirdOnASkull-]

Can i ask you if it's just your job that makes you miserable or the fact that you still need to work 9-5 for the rest of your life that bothers you? maybe between the two there's still hope for a solution.

 

[dalemar]

Thank you. I just want to stop suffering...

Good luck! I hope you can find your peace!

 

[zdeweilx]

Can i ask you if it's just your job that makes you miserable or the fact that you still need to work 9-5 for the rest of your life that bothers you? maybe between the two there's still hope for a solution.

Both tbh... and thank you but i see no sign of hope for now...

Good luck! I hope you can find your peace!

Thanks a lot.

 

[Forveleth]

Dude same. I am sitting here ready to throw a tantrum like a child because I have to go back to work tomorrow. I thought about killing myself this past week, but then I saw some burial arrangements that I want so now I have to wait and confirm those first.

 

[zdeweilx]

Dude same. I am sitting here ready to throw a tantrum like a child because I have to go back to work tomorrow. I thought about killing myself this past week, but then I saw some burial arrangements that I want so now I have to wait and confirm those first.

Sorry you feel that way too. I can relate, i've been feeling grumpy since literally 3 days and i didn't even enjoy my holidays. I think work makes many of us suicidal. I'm supposed to be heading to work in 8 hours ffs.

 

[metfan647]

Feel your pain. I have to wake up for work in 7 hours. The Sunday Scaries have been horrific today after all this time off over the festive period.

 

[zdeweilx]

Feel your pain. I have to wake up for work in 7 hours. The Sunday Scaries have been horrific today after all this time off over the festive period.

F work man...

 

[A_Spartan_Dead]

It's all about the problems eàch faces in the world. If there's stable housing, food and support network one can put up with the other stuff. But now it's all becoming unaffordable and impossible to get. Jobs severely underpaid.
support networks not able to do anything except maybe give us happy pills to keep our mind away from our trouble.
Everyone is too scared to go on strike all at once for fear of losing their jobs and livelihoods.
Catch 22 this world, this life.