weeping<3willow
he/she
- Oct 14, 2025
- 36
i don't know. couple months ago i was so ready, about to do it. did a shit ton of mushrooms and decided to get help. well, i got help, and i feel just how i did before i got help by now.
does this state of limbo ever end? or is this how everyone feels while trying to get better? i'm about to be off my step dad's insurance, so it's not like "getting help" is going to be an option for much longer. i honestly want to just do it. i'm sick of this, i'm holding onto such a thin branch.
i'd post this in the recovery section but this is more-so me *almost* asking how can i just get this over with?
p.s. if i don't get a job by february 1st i'm going to be kicked out of my halfway house & sleeping outside homeless again. i'm terrified.
does this state of limbo ever end? or is this how everyone feels while trying to get better? i'm about to be off my step dad's insurance, so it's not like "getting help" is going to be an option for much longer. i honestly want to just do it. i'm sick of this, i'm holding onto such a thin branch.
i'd post this in the recovery section but this is more-so me *almost* asking how can i just get this over with?
p.s. if i don't get a job by february 1st i'm going to be kicked out of my halfway house & sleeping outside homeless again. i'm terrified.
