I tried last night

[Darmok]

I tried taking 5800 mg of benzonatate yesterday evening. Obviously, did not work.

About 30 minutes after takig it a combination of things set in. Heartbeat went wild. Got really dizzy. Numbness in my extremities. Auditory hallucinations.

And then vomited a whole bunch.

The whole affair mostly subsided after 45 minutes.

Went to the ER. Could not tell them I had attempted suicide. Told them I had taken 6. They observed me for a while, rehydrated me, sent me home.

And now I have this unsuccessful attempt. I am sad and frustrated. Felt like the end was in my grasp and now it is gone.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Don't be too hard to yourself. CTB isn't that easy.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to suffer, I understand why you'd feel like that as all I want is to be gone, I see so much cruelty in how there isn't the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer again, I wish you the best.

 

[brokensongs]

I tried taking 5800 mg of benzonatate yesterday evening. Obviously, did not work.

About 30 minutes after takig it a combination of things set in. Heartbeat went wild. Got really dizzy. Numbness in my extremities. Auditory hallucinations.

And then vomited a whole bunch.

The whole affair mostly subsided after 45 minutes.

Went to the ER. Could not tell them I had attempted suicide. Told them I had taken 6. They observed me for a while, rehydrated me, sent me home.

And now I have this unsuccessful attempt. I am sad and frustrated. Felt like the end was in my grasp and now it is gone.

Sorry I know how frustrating a failed attempt can be. I attempted last night too. But truly, I'm really sorry.

 

[Jisatsu]

Just be glad they didn't figure out it was a attempt and make you get admitted into the psych ward.

 

[TheMadmanJL]

Practice doesn't always mean perfection! In a weird but caring way, I hope that you find your peace, life sucks and the fact that all people are about is money is discouraging! What good will paper do whenever our country defaults on its 30+ trillion dollar debt? People are ignorant, and the fact that my parents brought me into this world they were simply horny and I didn't ask for this shit! Fuck existence