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Poiter1987

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Apr 14, 2025
56
The sheer misery i feel and how fucked my life is. My only solution is suicide otherwise I risk being homeless some time soon.

Look at this world it is poison. Filled with wars illness pain and suffering on scales which you just can't even comprehend.

We watch the news about wars. We kill each other in horrible ways.

We lock people in cells for life. Some probably deserve it. But it speaks to a deeper issue that this world is not some happy place its awful.

The world is just cruel. Everyone we know will be dead one day and so will we.

I think this is hell because despite all my suffering I seem not to have the courage to actually kill myself.

It would he a well designed hell if the point is i cannot kill myself. If the point is suffering through psychological warfare over years that it slowly grinds you down and leaves you with nothing.

Fuck this reality. What nonsense. I dont think there is a heaven. I don't think there is a hell. I think we are already in hell.

Maybe I did something terrible once and now eternal suffering happens through reality. The sheer point of existence being to make me suffer. To make all of you suffer.

I want to die. But I cannot bring myself to do it. Perfect hell.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,106
I understand, no matter what I'll always see this world as the most horrific dreadful place that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway, I'll always see it as an abomination to exist and I wish I never suffered in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence more than anything.
 
RadiantNumber

RadiantNumber

Specialist
Mar 2, 2024
307
Indeed, some asshole is playing with us
 
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LetMeOut67

LetMeOut67

Experienced
May 7, 2025
262
It feels deliberate
Like someone somewhere is organising this misery for their own ends
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
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The world is just a hell and in it human beings are the tortured souls on one hand, and the devils on the other.

- Arthur Schopenhauer (c. 1850)
 
Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Warlock
May 7, 2025
717
I believe it is like hell. IF I were a religious man, I would believe this is hell... we are here to be tormented. Maybe there is a way out if we learn something specific... or maybe we're just stuck here and have no path to heaven.

But I don't believe in spiritual hell... so it's just a metaphor... and it's hell and we die and it ends with nothing to gain.
 
sinfonia

sinfonia

Arcanist
Jun 2, 2024
489
I disagree. I'm sorry however that you risk becoming homeless; I hope it doesn't turn out that way.
 

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