Today I had a date/meeting with a woman. It turned out she is also neurodiverse. ADHD and autism. Thus far I only told her I have autism. But hinted maybe there is more. We had extremely good chemistry. Our conversations on the app were really amazing. I still have major doubts whether we will end up in a relationship.
It seems like her ex was really toxic and she is in therapy to cope with what happened. I think she also tested whether I respect boundaries. And I did.
We laughed so much. We cracked one joke after the other. We talked about a lot of videogames and TV shows we both watched. The conversation was really deep and personal. I asked one time whether I overshared and she replied she has no problem with that and she herself does this too.
There was something weird. We know each other from a dating channel on an app. And thus far I had the feeling that the meeting was actually a date. But when we took a long walk she told me she replied to many men she is not interested in dating. And she looks more for social contacts. At the same time she elaborated what she meant with that. With dating she means that men pressured her to have sex with her to assess whether the physical component fits. And she rejects that idea. She refered to a friend with whom she discussses sports. And my language it sounded like she was talking about a potential boyfriend. I asked her whether she is in a relationship. And she told me she can reassure me she has no boyfriend
I think she also tested me how I react when she talks about something sexual. Whether I respect boundaries. I have the feeling she has made a lot of bad experiences. We talked about Game of Thrones and she talked about the sex scenes. And then she refered to another TV show with really explicit sexual scenes. I got a boner but I tried to hide it. But obviously I didn't act on anything. Never in my life would I want to be such a guy. When the talked about that stuff we also entered a garden where there wasn't much space between us. I am not sure whether she wanted to test whether I would touch her. Obviously I didn't do that.
We talked about the Nintendo Switch 2. She told me she doesn't want to give the company more money. I told her my friends had the same opinion. And they shitted on me when I pre-ordered the console. Two of them bought the console later though. One of them even bought the console of a scalper because he considered Mario Kart World as too tempting. I told her I didn't want to emphasize that my friends were inconsistent. She couldn't understand and told me I really should have rubbed that in. I told her I think this wouldn't be smart. If my friends buy a new console we spend more time on gaming together and I really enjoy that. I really dislike the notion of having to rub it in. Especially with my friends. I like my friends so much because I make myself so vulnerable. And it would be very easy to judge me. But they never do that. We are extremely open and we support each other as good as possible. Especially when it comes to insecurities. I had friends in the past. I ghosted them. Who liked to mock other friends for insecurities. And I really realyl hate that. The concept of friendly or love bullying is bullshit. And I have the feeling you attract fake friends and fake partners if this is a common behavior. I think I do something different to love bullying with my friends. I am a complete bullshitter. I talk about really absurd things. And I think if you are a frequent reader of my posts you might be surprised. WIth my closest friends I crack so weird and absurd jokes. I cracked a lot of diarrhea jokes. I make weird funny noises and weird faces. My friends too. I once jokingly said we should make a ranking which of our mothers is the hottest MILF. A friend of mine reminded that I once made this joke. I completely forgot that. My friends like to spend time with me. And I am good at making them laugh. But we laugh together and not about each others weak spots. And this is where love bullying doesn't add up to me. Love and degragation doesn't go hand in hand with me. And I don't really see the benefit if you do that. Bullies in school might argue the goal was to strengthen the character and resilience of this victim. But that is extreme bullshit. As I said I think this concept is very toxic and attracts the wrong people. People who als don't respect boundaries. But then again some women are attracted to bad boys. And I am simply not one of them. On dating apps I often read that some women really enjoy love bullying.
It seems like her ex was really toxic and she is in therapy to cope with what happened. I think she also tested whether I respect boundaries. And I did.
We laughed so much. We cracked one joke after the other. We talked about a lot of videogames and TV shows we both watched. The conversation was really deep and personal. I asked one time whether I overshared and she replied she has no problem with that and she herself does this too.
There was something weird. We know each other from a dating channel on an app. And thus far I had the feeling that the meeting was actually a date. But when we took a long walk she told me she replied to many men she is not interested in dating. And she looks more for social contacts. At the same time she elaborated what she meant with that. With dating she means that men pressured her to have sex with her to assess whether the physical component fits. And she rejects that idea. She refered to a friend with whom she discussses sports. And my language it sounded like she was talking about a potential boyfriend. I asked her whether she is in a relationship. And she told me she can reassure me she has no boyfriend
I think she also tested me how I react when she talks about something sexual. Whether I respect boundaries. I have the feeling she has made a lot of bad experiences. We talked about Game of Thrones and she talked about the sex scenes. And then she refered to another TV show with really explicit sexual scenes. I got a boner but I tried to hide it. But obviously I didn't act on anything. Never in my life would I want to be such a guy. When the talked about that stuff we also entered a garden where there wasn't much space between us. I am not sure whether she wanted to test whether I would touch her. Obviously I didn't do that.
We talked about the Nintendo Switch 2. She told me she doesn't want to give the company more money. I told her my friends had the same opinion. And they shitted on me when I pre-ordered the console. Two of them bought the console later though. One of them even bought the console of a scalper because he considered Mario Kart World as too tempting. I told her I didn't want to emphasize that my friends were inconsistent. She couldn't understand and told me I really should have rubbed that in. I told her I think this wouldn't be smart. If my friends buy a new console we spend more time on gaming together and I really enjoy that. I really dislike the notion of having to rub it in. Especially with my friends. I like my friends so much because I make myself so vulnerable. And it would be very easy to judge me. But they never do that. We are extremely open and we support each other as good as possible. Especially when it comes to insecurities. I had friends in the past. I ghosted them. Who liked to mock other friends for insecurities. And I really realyl hate that. The concept of friendly or love bullying is bullshit. And I have the feeling you attract fake friends and fake partners if this is a common behavior. I think I do something different to love bullying with my friends. I am a complete bullshitter. I talk about really absurd things. And I think if you are a frequent reader of my posts you might be surprised. WIth my closest friends I crack so weird and absurd jokes. I cracked a lot of diarrhea jokes. I make weird funny noises and weird faces. My friends too. I once jokingly said we should make a ranking which of our mothers is the hottest MILF. A friend of mine reminded that I once made this joke. I completely forgot that. My friends like to spend time with me. And I am good at making them laugh. But we laugh together and not about each others weak spots. And this is where love bullying doesn't add up to me. Love and degragation doesn't go hand in hand with me. And I don't really see the benefit if you do that. Bullies in school might argue the goal was to strengthen the character and resilience of this victim. But that is extreme bullshit. As I said I think this concept is very toxic and attracts the wrong people. People who als don't respect boundaries. But then again some women are attracted to bad boys. And I am simply not one of them. On dating apps I often read that some women really enjoy love bullying.
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