I think I’m finally starting to feel happy

[progressingdeath]

My ex partner and I had a horribly toxic and abusive relationship going both ways. I couldn't envision a life without him but since we've been apart I finally feel happier and free to do as I please without being made to feel like I'm doing something wrong when I'm not.

I've been sober from heroin and crack since leaving him. I'm working and don't have to worry about lying, stealing, etc for our habit even though I wanted to quit for awhile but he was always hesitant or made excuses to not just stop.

I also have an amazing boyfriend now that shows me love unconditionally, rubs my feet, and is able to give me everything my ex boyfriend said he wanted to give me but never did

I finally can breathe again and I'm not under constant worry of how to get our next fix or if my ex thinks I'm doing something wrong.

 

[ScholarOfDespair]

Congrats! So happy for you.

 

[loakms8]

happy for you and your boyfriend～

 

[Namelesa]

So sorry you had to deal with so much with your ex but very good you escaped that. Honestly thats a very impressive thing to finally leave him and even be sober from some addictive drugs.

also Ashley Graves pfp spotted ^^

 

[Alice.]

thats actually awesome, im so proud of you. i'm glad you were able to find someone else who is better for you too. also based pfp

 

[progressingdeath]

I remember the first time my current bf and I met. I thought I wouldn't like him the same way I liked my ex at first. He was too gentle, but I stayed and I love that about him. He's gentle and honest with his feelings and he cries when he feels vulnerable and talks to me
He appreciates my honesty and works with me and I work with him

My ex always told me he's sorry for the next person I meet. He always saw me in a bad light that only existed for us… that didn't help me make better choices in our relationship even when I wanted to and did make better choices I couldn't escape his image of me… even when I knew what I truly wanted in life. I knew how to do it and I knew how to do it for him too but I couldn't escape the damage that fucked us up in the first place. It's equally our faults

I still think about him but I realize how wrong we were together. He still feels like my soul mate if we met in a different situation in life but that ship has sailed and it took so long for it to really feel over. I remember wanting him to just shut me out so it could finally be done because I was at a lost to know how to fix things. I also couldn't ever just leave him by my own volition… he would have always been my one and only even if I tried to move on. If he messaged me I'd go back. Just not anymore and this last time I went back one more time and that was it. My ex physically hurt me and emotionally broke me way too much and I did the same to him

When it finally happened I was broken, totally broken, I had alcohol toxicity and overdosed, but I survived and after awhile being away (even though I tried to reach out a few times) I still think about him and wish him to be okay but now I finally feel ok myself :)

 

[TBONTB]

This is great news!!

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

Proud of you, and congratulations :)

 

[microwaved_dawg]

So happy for you both and proud of you for staying sober.

Meeting someone else who is actually good for you specially after clinging to someone who was no good is a wonderful feeling, makes you start to see life in a different light, it's refreshing not to be constantly put down by someone who just wants to have you for the sake of having you and not loving you.