i think if i dissapear universe wouldnt even notice

[maccybobo]

Isnt it weird that you want to die so badly but youre afraid of actual actions toward death? I dont get it. I think about killing myself all the time, thru every thing i do in day or night. I think about which way to do it. Lifes shit, i hate my school, hate my body and my mind. I wish i was born as somebody else. When i see myself i want to smash my head into the wall
I dont know how to push myself to actually doing it
I notice that self harming made me less paintolerant, ironically which makes Me more scared to kill myself idddk
I just wish i Could just not exist, wouldnt be amazing? To just klick some bottom and not exist?
How do you guys prepare to kill yourself? How can i be braver
Heeelp

 

[Marc]

Well i like to meditate to clear my head and it helps with staying calm and relaxed. If you would combine that with taking some benzo there would be no anxiety at all.

hugs

 

[HelpPlease]

Good for you