Misanthrope0000
Misanthrope
- Sep 8, 2024
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Even though I'm not the kind to do unplanned attempts, I was in a very vulnerable situation where I lost all my sanity and I hit myself and slapped myself repeatedly while crying and screaming at how much I hated my life and wanted a way out, my family's comfort wasn't enough, I grabbed the 5 packs of risperidone and started taking it non stop, my mom came inside my room again and stopped me at the 11th pill, I refused to throw up when she told me to, I was already blinded by insanity but after a few hours (like 2hrs) I started to function normally again and knew that my overdose will more likely give me physical issues than dying, I purged the pills and stayed dizzy the whole day, the day after that I had difficulty breathing and I can't stop snoring and rattling while awake, my neck was moving by itself in a painful way as well, it was torture, today, I went back from the doctor he told me I had poisonous toxins inside my system and lacked iron which caused the dizziness, fainting and difficulty breathing (iron prob not related to the attempt lmao).
Looking back at it now, I should've controlled myself instead of carelessly overdosing on antipsychotics, but it's not like I was same enough to make that decision. My mother took the medicine far away from me
Looking back at it now, I should've controlled myself instead of carelessly overdosing on antipsychotics, but it's not like I was same enough to make that decision. My mother took the medicine far away from me
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