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kvorumese
"Wiped Out!"
- Oct 21, 2024
- 129
There's no reason why I would ctb, technically. When I ask myself why I'm suicidal, I mostly just tell myself "governments. And society" and honestly it's true, those are real problems that I just cannot live with. At the same time I feel like I'm forcing suicidal ideation onto myself *somehow* - I'm not really doing anything for it, I just feel like it's not authentic. Maybe I am indeed just not healthy and this is some mental illness. If it is, I'm not gonna get it fixed, I like my suicidalness. After all, it's an awesome plan B and a great way to fear death much less.