Venting I see homelessness in my future, I already feel there

[katara]

I have been so sick recently, since last month, everything started feeling unreal. I've never felt this terrible before. I wake up and everyday I feel like I'm dying, I think I'm in hell. Nothing feels right. I have nobody I can reach out to, maybe I feel this way bc I've been miserable and alone for so long. I lost my youth by dropping out of high school and then my life ended. I can't be here by 30. I am so scared, constantly. I don't know what is happening, but I keep feeling like I am trapped in some kind of hell. I would rather not feel this. It's not fair I have to experience this, if I'm going to continue, I have to leave where I live my mom isn't helping. She dismisses me any time I try explaining how bad I feel. I have been a shut in for years and my mom blocks me when I've tried leaving. I feel like I'm in hell and I'm tired of my mom feeling like she's a good person and telling me I'm spoiled. I can't stand being here and no amount of me screaming for help will end this bc nobody cares. I don't know what I feel so bad, if this is what dying feels like it's a nightmare. I'd like to think death feels more pleasant and from what I have searched, ChatGPT is saying it's ptsd. I don't know, this feels worse. It doesn't end, it won't leave. I think my brain is broken. I'm scared

 

[amerie]

I know this is probably shit and minuscule advice, but have you tried joining a local club in your city or volunteering?

Like at a food bank or maybe even something like running marathons? It can help you get out of the house and find a community of people who are willing to help you get out and get back into school maybe if you actually bond with them and they like you enough.

Maybe you can possibly start a local club in your city with other gooners or a support group for people with dyslexia or reading issues, it'll give you a purpose and something to feel passionate about.

 

[katara]

I totally understand people who OD. It's so frustrating knowing I'll never be able to function like a normal person

 

[TBONTB]

Hey, really sorry you are feeling this way. I can definitely relate.

 

[katara]

Hey, really sorry you are feeling this way. I can definitely relate.

Do u really? I'm curious to know what I said is relatable to you.

 

[Nexuuz123]

I relate quite a bit to the homelessness part, am 19 and feel like ive screwed myself with substance abuse and i cant really handle the stresses of life, am propped up by my parents still but they aren't too swell.

 

[katara]

I relate quite a bit to the homelessness part, am 19 and feel like ive screwed myself with substance abuse and i cant really handle the stresses of life, am propped up by my parents still but they aren't too swell.

I'm in a difficult situation bc my mom doesn't help me at all. I have no family to reach out to. I wish I could just live in a car on someone's yard or something. But I don't think I can ever get a job bc I didn't graduate high school, so I guess… I'm screwed.

 

[DirtCommie]

Sorry for any pain youre now experiencimg or will experienve

Housing Is A Human Right. Stories like yours confirm this truth once again

If you took all humans alive right now and put them in a square shoulder to shoulder theyd fit in an area the size of los angeles in california in the usa. So dont ever believe those lies when someone tells you there isnt enough space for each adult to have their small home.

Humans and our pets are not meant to be battered by the searing sun or the sloshing snow all day long.

 

[katara]

Sorry for any pain youre now experiencimg or will experienve

Housing Is A Human Right. Stories like yours confirm this truth once again

If you took all humans alive right now and put them in a square shoulder to shoulder theyd fit in an area the size of los angeles in california in the usa. So dont ever believe those lies when someone tells you there isnt enough space for each adult to have their small home.

Humans and our pets are not meant to be battered by the searing sun or the sloshing snow all day long.

Ya this is why I hate living in USA where there's so much of a mentality everyone is on their own! It's so cruel

 

[DirtCommie]

Ya this is why I hate living in USA where there's so much of a mentality everyone is on their own! It's so cruel

things are like this almost everywhere. im in canada and people freeze to desth on the streets all the time in winter. Same happens in russia and probably in a few scandanavian countries too (other than finland)

Like arent humans social creatures? Didnt we thrive in the past cause we worked together and looked out for each other?

Why is it illegal for us to do that right now?...