i really wish things were different

[anyoneshorizon]

I'm sure everyone does. don't think most people want to kill themselves if they loved how their life was going. I wish i could just change a few things and my life would be so much better but i can't and it isnt. I just want to be able to love myself i know others have worse problems but it still makes life for me unbearable

 

[Zegers]

I want to die to live

 

[Klophy]

I know how you feel.

I wish I was able to love myself more as well people's opinions and actions towards me have shaped the person I am.

If only things could change...

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yes, of course, so many others have many worse problems than many of us. But, we all have our own crosses to bear and we have to walk in our own shoes. So many things in life our out of our control. I won't feel guilt for feeling how I do. I know there are others, as I said, with far worse problems than mine, and most of them don't want to kill themselves. I can only feel what I feel, and I make no apologies. My life is the one I have to live, and if I can't, I can't.

 

[BRAINWORMS]

Same here. There are beautiful things in my life that I fight for, but my God, the dark things are so incredibly dark that they negate the good.

 

[crowbait]

Same. That's what I wish non-suicidal people would understand- for a lot of us this is just a strategic move. If our lives were okay we wouldn't want to leave.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally view non existence as being preferable to any kind of life and I would choose eternal sleep over everything. In my case I do really want to die, I have a strong dislike for life itself, but it must be hard for those who wish that they could live yet they feel as though they are unable to. To me, life is just a cruel mistake and of course it's incredibly unfair.

 

[SarRy]

In many ways, people pay therapists to give them the unconditional love and support that they didn't receive as children. I guess that's when most people are supposed to learn that they have value and to love themselves.

 

[akirat9]

I'm sure everyone does. don't think most people want to kill themselves if they loved how their life was going. I wish i could just change a few things and my life would be so much better but i can't and it isnt. I just want to be able to love myself i know others have worse problems but it still makes life for me unbearable

for me is not want to rot old decay
think getting old is horrible

I want to die to live

see this. live my dream in death with no pain, no hurt , none

 

[Sakura94]

I personally view non existence as being preferable to any kind of life and I would choose eternal sleep over everything. In my case I do really want to die, I have a strong dislike for life itself, but it must be hard for those who wish that they could live yet they feel as though they are unable to. To me, life is just a cruel mistake and of course it's incredibly unfair.

What's sleeping like for you?

 

[chaosandquiet]

I personally view non existence as being preferable to any kind of life and I would choose eternal sleep over everything. In my case I do really want to die, I have a strong dislike for life itself, but it must be hard for those who wish that they could live yet they feel as though they are unable to. To me, life is just a cruel mistake and of course it's incredibly unfair.

This, 100%.
Ironically, dying has proved to be difficult as well, but hopefully that will change soon.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

In many ways, people pay therapists to give them the unconditional love and support that they didn't receive as children. I guess that's when most people are supposed to learn that they have value and to love themselves.

Never saw things like that but it's right

 

[FuneralCry]

What's sleeping like for you?

To me sleep can never be that much of a relief as long as the chance of waking up the next day is there. Sleep is too temporary and it cannot really be that peaceful as long as there are dreams.