I feel so empty. It really feels like there's nothing to look forward to in my future and I'm so sick of my life. I recently started antidepressants and I feel a bit better. But still have this aching feeling to just leave this all behind for good.
I have no idea what to do for a career, spent 4 years on a degree that is now useless thanks to AI generation. Other than that, I have worked part time as a chef but it's not sustainable as a career due to the lack of hours in every single restaurant.
I have 1 friend who would miss me. And my younger sister would too, but the hurt would pass for them. I have this horrible situationship that I desperately need to end because it is causing me more pain. But every time I've tried to end it, I was just unable to.
I got diagnosed C-PTSD last year. I've only just come to terms with the fact that my mum also abused me and it wasn't just my dad. I feel so lost.
I'm so stressed with my previous landlord acting dodgy and harassing me for money I do not owe as well as now threatening legal action. They are holding over £1000 of my money too.
I am toying with the idea of reporting my ex for domestic violence. He almost murdered me and I did not report this for years. Now I feel guilty for his current/future partners. I feel like I need to report this but I don't want to relive those memories and have to search through old messages and reach out to old friends for evidence.
I just see no good future for myself. I see no point in continuing this stress. There haven't been good days in a long time. I don't know what I live for. I thought it was to take care of my cats but I feel like a bad owner. Maybe it is the hope that someday I'll be loved? I feel as though I have never been loved. I just want it all to end. I don't understand why the world just throws me more pain and stress and difficult situations. Why can't I just have it easy?
I have no idea what to do for a career, spent 4 years on a degree that is now useless thanks to AI generation. Other than that, I have worked part time as a chef but it's not sustainable as a career due to the lack of hours in every single restaurant.
I have 1 friend who would miss me. And my younger sister would too, but the hurt would pass for them. I have this horrible situationship that I desperately need to end because it is causing me more pain. But every time I've tried to end it, I was just unable to.
I got diagnosed C-PTSD last year. I've only just come to terms with the fact that my mum also abused me and it wasn't just my dad. I feel so lost.
I'm so stressed with my previous landlord acting dodgy and harassing me for money I do not owe as well as now threatening legal action. They are holding over £1000 of my money too.
I am toying with the idea of reporting my ex for domestic violence. He almost murdered me and I did not report this for years. Now I feel guilty for his current/future partners. I feel like I need to report this but I don't want to relive those memories and have to search through old messages and reach out to old friends for evidence.
I just see no good future for myself. I see no point in continuing this stress. There haven't been good days in a long time. I don't know what I live for. I thought it was to take care of my cats but I feel like a bad owner. Maybe it is the hope that someday I'll be loved? I feel as though I have never been loved. I just want it all to end. I don't understand why the world just throws me more pain and stress and difficult situations. Why can't I just have it easy?
