I Really Don’t Want to Die

[Celerity]

I really wish things could be better. I hate the we all feel we need to do this. I'm not even sure what lasting changes would need to occur in my life. Maybe I'm fated to go through with this. Idk. I just know this fucking sucks.

 

[Lady black]

Sometimes the necessary changes are not possible

 

[Celerity]

Sometimes the necessary changes are not possible

Yeah, I really don't think they are. I would have to be a completely different person - and then what's the point? I wouldn't be me anymore. I'm talking about a complete personality makeover.

 

[Lady black]

For me it would also be a complete change of my ill body and also my soul

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, as long as you have doubts about whether to ctb or not, the best thing is not to act impulsively.
Just keep on trying to deal with life and see what the future has in store for you.

Hugs,

Matt

 

[Celerity]

Well, as long as you have doubts about whether to ctb or not, the best thing is not to act impulsively.
Just keep on trying to deal with life and see what the future has in store for you.

Hugs,

Matt

You're probably right. I just don't want my life as it is now and has been for the past 16 years. When I ask myself whether it has all been worth it, I usually come up quite short. Those aren't great odds. That's 16/28 years of BS, so a little over half my life now.

 

[Largeletters]

I agree with you Celerity, it's sad we all have come to this... I wish things could have ended up better for everyone on this site. I'm sorry so much of your life has been full of suffering.

 

[lonerclown666]

i want this world is corrupt

 

[FuneralCry]

Yeah, I think many of us don't want to die, we just want the pain to end and death is the only way for this to happen to us. It's sad what this life has done to us. Sometimes there is just nothing you can do to change it. I think it has always been inevitable for me that I will ctb.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I'm sorry life has been painful for you. It does suck that the only chance of life we had was this, and it ended up not being in any of our favors whether health wise, socially, mentally, emotionally, physically, romantically. Life sucks for some currently, and it's great for others. So unfortunate it has come to this. I'm just sorry to my parents I know they would have wanted the best for me however they took a chance at having children and mine just turned out to be unfavorable while my siblings ended up having a life of sociability, and romance and average looks while I fall below average in all areas in life. However it would be selfish of them to be so greedy and expect me to stay alive in misery while they have other children that can pursue life until natural death and to leave me alone and respect my choice.