kohaku
Nonbinary Hysteric
- Mar 27, 2019
- 188
After my failed SN attempt which I made a retrospective thread about, I came face to face with death. But I lived.
My friend said it was a sign from God. To me, however? It was luck. I don't believe in fate or destiny or anything, I think it's all a coincidence. Everything that happens happens for absolutely no reason whatsoever, it just does. What use is there in wondering about concepts we couldn't possibly truly grasp?
I spent 3 days in a hospital and then 20 in another. Safe to say, my cravings for death were moderately quelled. I realized I have so many people who care and ending my life would jut ruin theirs. I still get depressed sometimes, and I get tired easily, but somehow less than before. From now on, I'm avoiding the Suicide Discussion forum category. I will be here exclusively to talk about my experiences and maybe help others.
I'm happy to write this thread. It feels like renouncing a dreadful weight on my shoulders.
My friend said it was a sign from God. To me, however? It was luck. I don't believe in fate or destiny or anything, I think it's all a coincidence. Everything that happens happens for absolutely no reason whatsoever, it just does. What use is there in wondering about concepts we couldn't possibly truly grasp?
I spent 3 days in a hospital and then 20 in another. Safe to say, my cravings for death were moderately quelled. I realized I have so many people who care and ending my life would jut ruin theirs. I still get depressed sometimes, and I get tired easily, but somehow less than before. From now on, I'm avoiding the Suicide Discussion forum category. I will be here exclusively to talk about my experiences and maybe help others.
I'm happy to write this thread. It feels like renouncing a dreadful weight on my shoulders.
