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coolgal82

coolgal82

she/it, terminally silly :3
Sep 10, 2024
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i hate myself i hate my body i hate my brain i hate all of it i just want him to like me and never leave and i need to be absolutely perfect for that but i can't be like i don't have the self control to change the things i can change and there are other things i can't change i'm so fucking sick of this i'm so sick of existing i shouldnt've been born this is the worst i've felt in a long time i feel like i'm gonna throw up

edit: like 2-3 minutes after this i feel almost fine again. not fine but just kinda nothing but its somewhat better. why is my brain like this?
 
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astroproto

astroproto

and soon enough, i wont feel real
Nov 17, 2025
76
It's cliche but you should know that you don't have to be perfect for someone to like you. I know tons of couples who have negative stuff to say against each other. Unfortunately though, people do have preferences and sometimes it's things that can't even be changed.
 
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darkandtwisty

darkandtwisty

Student
Jul 10, 2024
133
I want you to know, you're not alone in feeling like this. I fucking hate myself because no matter what I do, I'll always be the option he was stuck with. Not what he actually wanted.
But, at the same time, I also know that someone, somewhere is wishing to be with someone like me.
It's hard being an empath. We feel everything so deeply. Love and pain.
You are not alone in this.
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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Sep 10, 2025
244
i hate myself i hate my body i hate my brain i hate all of it i just want him to like me and never leave and i need to be absolutely perfect for that but i can't be like i don't have the self control to change the things i can change and there are other things i can't change i'm so fucking sick of this i'm so sick of existing i shouldnt've been born this is the worst i've felt in a long time i feel like i'm gonna throw up

edit: like 2-3 minutes after this i feel almost fine again. not fine but just kinda nothing but its somewhat better. why is my brain like this?
Honey, absolutely no one on earth is even close to being perfect. I would not recommend trying to achieve something that is unattainable for someone else.
 

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