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FakeSmileGuy

FakeSmileGuy

hate myself lol
Apr 16, 2024
57
Hi, my name is Alex, I'm killing myself today.

I was wondering if anyone here could do me a favor, I'm finally gonna ctb, and I've chosen a very secluded and beautiful area to do it, but there will be no cell service. I need someone to call 911 at 10:00pm, and let them know a person has committed suicide. I'm afraid of someone finding me, I'd rather not traumatize anyone.

I'll be at Blue Lake, Bishop, California. Please don't call before 10:00pm

Thank you for this.

Thank you to everyone on this website. Thank you for listening to me, and talking to me and giving me comfort. I regret not living my life differently. I regret hurting my family. I have a lot of regrets, but at least it'll all be over soon.

Thank you to everyone, farewell.

If I'm still alive somehow, I'll come back and say hi :)
 
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Glazed_Orange

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just send an email, schedule it for the time you expect to die. i'd spend time convincing you not to kill yourself if you have the time, if not, i get it. life's miserable
 
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FakeSmileGuy

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hate myself lol
Apr 16, 2024
57
Okay, I'll give that a try, thank you. So even if I don't have any data, it'll still send?
 
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Glazed_Orange

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Okay, I'll give that a try, thank you. So even if I don't have any data, it'll still send?
can i ask why you feel so strongly about death, i was feeling very suicidal today. i wanna commit, but i also want to live i guess. im stuck haha
 
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FakeSmileGuy

FakeSmileGuy

hate myself lol
Apr 16, 2024
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I've just made things too bad for myself, I've fucked up too much. I don't feel like I deserve to keep going. Also, I've just kept pushing this back, I found myself just pushing the date back indefinitely and finally decided to just do it.
I feel like life can also be very beautiful, and that there can be a lot to live for
 
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TitianCashew26

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@FakeSmileGuy

What method, if you don't mind me asking?
 
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Glazed_Orange

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I've just made things too bad for myself, I've fucked up too much. I don't feel like I deserve to keep going. Also, I've just kept pushing this back, I found myself just pushing the date back indefinitely and finally decided to just do it.
I feel like life can also be very beautiful, and that there can be a lot to live for
You're right when you say there's a lot to live for, hell the spot you chose to die in is very beautiful. It's now a dream for me to go and pay a visit, makes me wonder what else you know about :)
I've just made things too bad for myself, I've fucked up too much. I don't feel like I deserve to keep going. Also, I've just kept pushing this back, I found myself just pushing the date back indefinitely and finally decided to just do it.
I feel like life can also be very beautiful, and that there can be a lot to live for
If I may add, it's never too late to change things. No matter how badly you feel you may or may not have left things :D
 
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MeSauce

MeSauce

Bored of Life.
Jun 1, 2023
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just looked it up on google maps, good god that is beautiful
 
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hate myself lol
Apr 16, 2024
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@FakeSmileGuy

What method, if you don't mind me asking?
Probably suicide
You're right when you say there's a lot to live for, hell the spot you chose to die in is very beautiful. It's now a dream for me to go and pay a visit, makes me wonder what else you know about :)

If I may add, it's never too late to change things. No matter how badly you feel you may or may not have left things :D
Haha I don't know about much, I'm just 18
@FakeSmileGuy

What method, if you don't mind me asking?
Seriously though, I'll split my carotid artery. If I can't bring myself to do it, I'll hang myself, I wont go partial
 
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csdfghjjk_user

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I've just made things too bad for myself, I've fucked up too much. I don't feel like I deserve to keep going. Also, I've just kept pushing this back, I found myself just pushing the date back indefinitely and finally decided to just do it.
I feel like life can also be very beautiful, and that there can be a lot to live for
What do u mean you made things too bad for yourself? What happend? At 18 you are still very young. I thought I should have had my life figured out, but it's a lot trial and error. If you can see beauty and always postponed the date, are you sure there isn't a part in you that wants to keep going and see what can happen? I know time moves differently at 18 and it can feel like it has been ages and maybe some demage is irreparable. I am not going to convince you, I don't know your pain, and I wish you peace, but if you want to talk over PM, you can message me.
 
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TitianCashew26

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18—pain can happen at any time, I suppose, not just when someone's older. Although yeah—18, too young. Won't pretend to understand where that person's coming from, but hoping that peace is found without CTB for OP.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope that you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.
 
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c.c

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May 3, 2025
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May you rest in peace and find happiness regardless of how it goes:hug::heart:
 
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