Discussion I lay on bed all day

[Hopeless_brat]

Hello everyone, i want to share my guilt with you , i was an average student in school life was good until i met a girl from another section of my class , i instantly feel in love but i had anger issues and then she started to despise me, i become depressed and now just to give her Privacy i dont talk to her now coz i dont want to annoy her , but now i am in college just feel dumb my performance has plummeted i cant even manage to get passing marks , i have been taking depression medicine since November , now here is where i feel guilty , all i do is lay on bed all day and do nothing, my dad tells me to do something in life , get up be active, i feel ashamed becouse i have become a prodigal son , my dad worked as a fucking slave day and night only to see his son doing nothing in life , now i am planning to kill myself , i feel horrible, , my dad face says it all when i look at him.

 

[whatevs]

I think that instead of killing yourself and hurting your father more you have a good chance to try to turn your life around. Of course it's your life and I honour your autonomy by not infringing on what you should do, because deciding if we want to end our life is our right.

I just believe for your age and circumstances you probably can find improvement in a short period if you really try.

BTW to be a prodigal son you need to be first a disappointment/distant and then surprise your father positively by 'showing up'. Think of depression as not 'being present', because that's exactly what depression does to you. Once 'you're back', the prodigal analogy would make sense, as a good father will normally prefer to have their son around than focusing on their mistakes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. This life really can be so depressing and I know that it can be hard to carry on when everything feels so hopeless. I wish you relief from suffering in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

Don't feel like u have to impress your dad. What's going on with u obviously is more complicated than he realizes. It isn't just laziness or not wanting to do anything. Depression is not an illness, there's usually something more going on. It could be that u can't get your needs met for connection and support, could be hormone imbalance, could be diet, the antidepressants generally don't work forever bc the body builds tolerance. There's usually some reasons why people are depressed and it's not like it's independent of the environment. Sometimes it's even distorted thinking, not having a correct understanding of the world u live in. This can cause serious problems wen trying to navigate life.

 

[Hopeless_brat]

Don't feel like u have to impress your dad. What's going on with u obviously is more complicated than he realizes. It isn't just laziness or not wanting to do anything. Depression is not an illness, there's usually something more going on. It could be that u can't get your needs met for connection and support, could be hormone imbalance, could be diet, the antidepressants generally don't work forever bc the body builds tolerance. There's usually some reasons why people are depressed and it's not like it's independent of the environment. Sometimes it's even distorted thinking, not having a correct understanding of the world u live in. This can cause serious problems wen trying to navigate life.

I feel depressed because the universe is so big , god is so powerful, yet he chooses to hide from us , he could have created a better world , my dad has a lot of faith in him and doesn't feel anything wrong with god ways , to be honest I hate god because he is also evil.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

I feel depressed because the universe is so big , god is so powerful, yet he chooses to hide from us , he could have created a better world , my dad has a lot of faith in him and doesn't feel anything wrong with god ways , to be honest I hate god because he is also evil.

I just want u to know something important. God is a spirit and the reason u can't see God is because it is supernatural. You must also understand there is two Gods. One is the creator God who loves us and wants us to know him etc. The other one is Lucifer, he's the manager of our physical world but is also unseen. Lucifer is the God of this world aka the devil. That is who is responsible for the terrible things and oppression of the people. I wanted to at least clear this up for u so u don't blame the wrong God for all the misery. Our creator God actually wants us to thrive and have nice lives but we are flawed because of having lost the spirit because of Adam and Eves mistake. Basically every human being now is messed up because we are now just body and soul but no spirit to help reign in the excessive desires of the flesh. U can get your Holy Spirit to become active in u but it takes some effort. Most pple think the stuff I'm saying is not true and I understand. It is not easy to choose to believe there is a God and there was a Jesus etc.

 

[Judy Garland]

Hello everyone, i want to share my guilt with you , i was an average student in school life was good until i met a girl from another section of my class , i instantly feel in love but i had anger issues and then she started to despise me, i become depressed and now just to give her Privacy i dont talk to her now coz i dont want to annoy her , but now i am in college just feel dumb my performance has plummeted i cant even manage to get passing marks , i have been taking depression medicine since November , now here is where i feel guilty , all i do is lay on bed all day and do nothing, my dad tells me to do something in life , get up be active, i feel ashamed becouse i have become a prodigal son , my dad worked as a fucking slave day and night only to see his son doing nothing in life , now i am planning to kill myself , i feel horrible, , my dad face says it all when i look at him.

You're in pain, of course you can't get out of bed. I'm in pain too, and when I'm not in bed, I'm on this computer, day and night. Be easier on yourself. Mental anguish and pain is REAL. It's not something you can just "put your chin up" about and forget. It's hard for me to even go to the grocery store. I have to walk there and I dread every moment of it.