I just want to die

[Endqualia]

I don't even want things to get better anymore, Im too far gone. When I'm offered help in some form I can't accept it because I just want death and not to struggle to make this crap life worth living. I'm getting past the point of return, of even caring.

Who else feels like they would rather die than try and improve this lousy life anymore? I give up.

 

[Alan James]

Who else feels like they would rather die than try and improve this lousy life anymore? I give up.

I cann't change my sick body for another one and cann't cure my genes, so I never have a chance of improvement or some hope, but this is not a problem and does not upset me - the only problem is that I cann't buy N. To correct my faults i need a time machine, this is the only option.

 

[LogicalConclusion]

I'm sorry that you're feeling this way, friend. Sadly, I can relate. This morning I actually feel rested and started having thoughts that maybe I could be happier, but then I think on it, how I would have to keep trying with the mental health system and how it's just not feasible/I don't have it in me anymore. For so many years, I have tried to improve and, in fact, have...and I'm still not able to take care of myself. So yes, I think it would be better for me to die than keep struggling vainly for something very unlikely to happen. Message me if you want to talk at all :) I'm around, just sometimes suck at figuring out things to say lol Hugs to you friend