I haven’t been here in a while but of course I’m still fucked up

[venomousSSërpent74]

Some shit happened I really don't want to get into it's increasing my need to want to kms of course my friends don't want me to and have always been against it and trying to convince me not to.but I don't think that will help it doesn't honestly even those therapy pills don't work.and it just feels like it's helping me suppress my actual emotions more I don't care to try nothing else but overall.I'm having a thought to use jumping as one of my methods and unfortunately most areas have railings now and I feel like I should do a drop test first just in case it's not high enough.