SufferingDev
Proof of God's Mistakes
- Aug 4, 2024
- 11
Like in the title, most of my problems comes from my mom who is a perfectionalist and can't get over her imagined values - we end up having a lot of disputes that result in me being highly suicidal. No support with anyone else from my family.
I have no friends really, many of my "friends" don't really like me a lot because I am emotional, sensitive and I need attention. They call me attention-seeker, they say I try to be in the centre of the world - what I only want is someone to truly care about me - but even people who do, get tired - I need constant help over and over and I they say openly that they can't be always there for me - so do they care or not? They are bored - it seems like so?
Only reason I am still alive is the fear of death but what I got left?
I have no friends really, many of my "friends" don't really like me a lot because I am emotional, sensitive and I need attention. They call me attention-seeker, they say I try to be in the centre of the world - what I only want is someone to truly care about me - but even people who do, get tired - I need constant help over and over and I they say openly that they can't be always there for me - so do they care or not? They are bored - it seems like so?
Only reason I am still alive is the fear of death but what I got left?
