Venting I have no purpose in life and it’s killing me inside.

[alliecake]

I genuinely feel as if I have no purpose in life. I've never had a "dream job" and have lost all motivation in life. I wish there was something I'm passionate about but there's honestly nothing I am good at. I envy people that knew what they wanted to do in life and went after it to achieve it. Does anyone else feel like this? I have lost all hope and it's scary how much depression has robbed from me. I feel like such a disappointment to my parents!

 

[niki wonoto]

I've been considered musically talented, but it's also useless in the end if I don't know how to utilize it, or rather, capitalize on it, especially nowadays when we live in a capitalistic era.

 

[Regen]

I can understand that well...

If I put in a little effort, I'm not necessarily bad at some things. But I completely lack the meaning of doing anything, making an effort, pursuing goals, I don't feel joy in everything I do and therefore I completely lack the meaning of everything. I didn't have this joylessness to the same extent before, despite depression.

Overall, schema therapy helped me the most of all therapies. This is a therapy that deals with the inner child.

And in response to your text, I would like to say that there are also people who have no special talents, who are not particularly good at anything and who are still happy and satisfied with themselves and their lives. So there must be some internal key to happiness that lies beyond external successes... But I don't know how to get this key...

 

[Valhala]

Ever since I broke up with her, I've lost all meaning in life. Once you feel such a connection and such love, everything after that seems meaningless and the loneliness becomes absolute and unbearable. I gave myself time, I tried to get her back and I didn't succeed (although I'm sure and I know she's not indifferent), her disappointment in me because of my three breakups is too great for her to get over it, and my love for her is too great for me to be able and want to go on without her.

 

[unworthy_]

Ever since I broke up with her, I've lost all meaning in life. Once you feel such a connection and such love, everything after that seems meaningless and the loneliness becomes absolute and unbearable. I gave myself time, I tried to get her back and I didn't succeed (although I'm sure and I know she's not indifferent), her disappointment in me because of my three breakups is too great for her to get over it, and my love for her is too great for me to be able and want to go on without her.

I have the same feeling as well.

I am 39y this. As a woman, it means my fertility window is very short. My ex just broke up with me recently. A relationship i thought would change my life but it ended, unfortunately. I was hopeful before the last 2 months but I could not save it. I was selfish, indecisive and uncommunicative that led to this state.

I was severely broken from depression, hopeful then back to the same state only worse (current). The thing is time don't wait for us. We don't get any younger. Women like me, the clock is tickling every sec. When I was younger I wouldn't give much thoughts to it but right now, I do. There is no hope for me. I lost the person in my life, someone I am attracted to so much who loved and cared me once upon a time. I lost him forever. I did smtg that made him and his family hated me vehemently. I wish I could take away their pain...

With every waking day, this guilt is getting stronger. I will never forgive myself. My sense of purpose in living is just to be alive for my family. To live another 10y is agonising. Since the beginning of covid, I could never pictured myself in the future. It is a void.. perhaps this is a tell sign...

 

[SadFoxDreamer83]

I genuinely feel as if I have no purpose in life. I've never had a "dream job" and have lost all motivation in life. I wish there was something I'm passionate about but there's honestly nothing I am good at. I envy people that knew what they wanted to do in life and went after it to achieve it. Does anyone else feel like this? I have lost all hope and it's scary how much depression has robbed from me. I feel like such a disappointment to my parents!

I recommend that you try to spend a whole day in a quiet, solitary place on a mountain and think deeply about what you like. Many times, by spending a lot of time on a mountain alone, you discover things you didn't know about yourself. Perhaps if you delve deeper into your thoughts and tastes, you'll discover a passion for something you didn't know you had.

 

[Valhala]

I have the same feeling as well.

I am 39y this. As a woman, it means my fertility window is very short. My ex just broke up with me recently. A relationship i thought would change my life but it ended, unfortunately. I was hopeful before the last 2 months but I could not save it. I was selfish, indecisive and uncommunicative that led to this state.

I was severely broken from depression, hopeful then back to the same state only worse (current). The thing is time don't wait for us. We don't get any younger. Women like me, the clock is tickling every sec. When I was younger I wouldn't give much thoughts to it but right now, I do. There is no hope for me. I lost the person in my life, someone I am attracted to so much who loved and cared me once upon a time. I lost him forever. I did smtg that made him and his family hated me vehemently. I wish I could take away their pain...

With every waking day, this guilt is getting stronger. I will never forgive myself. My sense of purpose in living is just to be alive for my family. To live another 10y is agonising. Since the beginning of covid, I could never pictured myself in the future. It is a void.. perhaps this is a tell sign...

She was also 39 years old when we met and were together. We wanted everything in life, children, a family. I was able to do and sacrifice everything for her, I ended my ten-year marriage for her. We loved each other very much, like never before in my life. I was very special to her and she to me, and what hurts the most is that I know that it will always be like that and they will remain irreplaceable for each other. I broke up with her because I was impatient and pressured by external circumstances and she did not manage herself in the right way because she had no experience in partner relationships. I still love her and I will never be able to forgive myself for allowing myself to lose her..

 

[futurecorpse]

I've also felt like this. I used to want to be a funeral director, but my social anxiety and lack of confidence will ruin me. So maybe it's for the best that I lost my apprenticeship. I have empathy and compassion, and I like helping others. But how can I help others when I can't even help myself? It's hard seeing others from your high school class who (seem to) have their shit together. I don't. I'm incapable of standing on my own two feet after my dad passes. So I'm making sure to go before him. I feel like a huge failure. Almost 30 and I've accomplished nothing.

 

[alliecake]

I've also felt like this. I used to want to be a funeral director, but my social anxiety and lack of confidence will ruin me. So maybe it's for the best that I lost my apprenticeship. I have empathy and compassion, and I like helping others. But how can I help others when I can't even help myself? It's hard seeing others from your high school class who (seem to) have their shit together. I don't. I'm incapable of standing on my own two feet after my dad passes. So I'm making sure to go before him. I feel like a huge failure. Almost 30 and I've accomplished nothing.

I agree the hardest part is seeing people from my high school doing well and enjoying their life. I so desperately crave being successful. We are almost the same age and I have accomplished nothing either.

I recommend that you try to spend a whole day in a quiet, solitary place on a mountain and think deeply about what you like. Many times, by spending a lot of time on a mountain alone, you discover things you didn't know about yourself. Perhaps if you delve deeper into your thoughts and tastes, you'll discover a passion for something you didn't know you had.

This is actually not a bad idea :) thank you so much.