Venting I have 0 motivation for anything

[hellogoodbye999]

I tell myself that I'll at least try to change my life for the better and become a better person, but I just have zero motivation for anything. I just make up excuses for why I don't do anything and just rot at home. I've felt like this ever since I was really young like 11 years old, CTB would cross my mind then too.

I never asked to be born, i never said i wanted to live, i didn't ask for the responsibilities of life and yet it's all been thrown on to me. I wish I never existed.

The only reason why I'm still thinking about going through with my plan is because i haven't really tried to give life a shot, I'll try for a few weeks then give up and I'm a bit scared of death.

Does anyone else feel like this

 

[Forever Sleep]

I definitely feel like this now. I suppose I'm lucky in as much that it's hit later in life for me- I'm 45. When I was younger, I did have more motivation. Partly because my main motivator- being creative, developed as a coping mechanism.

But yes- if I don't have very specific responsibilities and deadlines, I will bed rot and play games all day- quite happily too. I suspect I could be content being NEET now.

I feel the same (maybe) resentment as you in that I'm very displeased I was born and am now expected to pay for a life I don't actually want.

But then, I find it hard to shake off the strong work ethic I was raised with too. So- I don't feel like I can just stop supporting myself. Plus, my family would give me so much shit if I did that. But, that creates a great deal of resentment inside.

I am a believer that you don't know for sure you'll hate something until you try it for yourself. So- in your case, it does make sense to me that maybe you could try a few things before deciding definitely, it isn't for you.

My personal experience is that life is a bunch of compromises though. In all honesty, even things I held out so much hope for had difficult patches or complicated consequences. Rarely was anything all entirely good.

So in my case- that's another element. I'm sick of the compromises. I'm tired of the whole- you have to expect and accept the shit as part of the whole deal. So many times in life I've heard the phrase: It's something we all have to do (accept and comply with). Be that- work related, domestic chore related, family related.

All of it just triggers me to want to say: 'I don't actually strictly need to remain alive! So- all that other shit is optional too!' It just has negative consequences sometimes. Which tends to make life feel shit overall- the whole: damned if we do, damned if we don't thing.

I suppose though- being older, I feel like I have tried a lot of what life has to offer. So, I feel more confident in my decision maybe.

I hope you do find something positive to bring you hope and motivation though. if you choose to live, life is so much easier with those things I've found. It's like an uphill struggle but with a rope at least to haul yourself up with. Good luck.

 

[Spite]

Yes I am feeling this a lot as of late, just no motivation or drive to do anything. I dread everything - having to go to work, having to do chores, having to be at certain places at certain times. I don't even have any motivation to do the things that I used to enjoy like making art and listening to music. How sad is that? I can't even find it in me to do something as simple as listening to music for goodness sake. It has gotten to the point where sleep has become enticing to me, like I actually enjoy being asleep and I look forward to sleeping. When I'm at my job I spend a lot of my time daydreaming about coming home and having a nap. It'd be nice if I could just sleep my life away.

And you're right we never asked to exist. The very least they could give us is the option to opt out and "quit the game" whenever we want. I want to quit. I wish I could but it's not as easy as it sounds.

 

[nendn]

I tell myself that I'll at least try to change my life for the better and become a better person, but I just have zero motivation for anything. I just make up excuses for why I don't do anything and just rot at home. I've felt like this ever since I was really young like 11 years old, CTB would cross my mind then too.

I never asked to be born, i never said i wanted to live, i didn't ask for the responsibilities of life and yet it's all been thrown on to me. I wish I never existed.

The only reason why I'm still thinking about going through with my plan is because i haven't really tried to give life a shot, I'll try for a few weeks then give up and I'm a bit scared of death.

Does anyone else feel like this

Hello hellogoodbye999 , very thanks for sharing your experience. for me it's the experience of a total passive existence, by knowing of other possibilities. getting more stupid from moment to moment. feels like everything is more torture, harassment and pain.
If I ask myself how did I perceived and felt back in the days? then it is sharp conscious how bad the situation what life should be really is.

 

[mfrye176]

I've been feeling completely empty too, with no motivation for life at all. What I hate most is that you can't just quit. Existence is something you're thrown into without permission, yet leaving isn't simple. You know what's strange? It's that before, I was genuinely passionate about life. I had hobbies. My family situation was bad, I didn't have many friends, and I didn't really have a big dream career or anything like that but even so, I felt some kind of love in being alone with my interests.

But eventually though, I started questioning everything. What was the point of all this? Slowly, everything I did began to feel empty. I lost motivation. I should have felt content, satisfied because back then, I felt fulfilled obsessing over different little interests in life. But deep down, I always felt like something was missing in me.

I started thinking maybe the emptiness was because I didn't have a partner, close friends, supportive family, or good career. Like maybe if I had those, something inside me would change. So I tried participating in life. And when I did, I experienced a lot of pain. Yes, there were moments of happiness, but on the other side of that happiness was the constant possibility of being hurt just as deeply. And I didn't like that.

People say that's just how life works, that you survive by holding onto happiness while enduring the suffering that comes with it. But what if I don't want that for myself? I don't want suffering. Even if happiness exists on the other side, I don't want to live a life where pain is always part of the deal. For me, suffering weighs much heavier than happiness ever could.

That's what frustrates me so deeply. Life feels like constant suffering, where you just try your best, cling to moments of happiness, and wait until you die. I'm exhausted by that idea. I just want to quit.

 

[Cry Baby <3]

Ive been feeling exactly the same, truly. I bed rot all day and for me the simplest chores are impossible to get done, let alone tougher tasks. Im falling behind at school and its so so unfair that weve been forced to live a life we never even asked for

 

[killawithme]

I tell myself that I'll at least try to change my life for the better and become a better person, but I just have zero motivation for anything. I just make up excuses for why I don't do anything and just rot at home. I've felt like this ever since I was really young like 11 years old, CTB would cross my mind then too.

I never asked to be born, i never said i wanted to live, i didn't ask for the responsibilities of life and yet it's all been thrown on to me. I wish I never existed.

The only reason why I'm still thinking about going through with my plan is because i haven't really tried to give life a shot, I'll try for a few weeks then give up and I'm a bit scared of death.

Does anyone else feel like this

I definitely do. The only difference is that death doesn't scare me; it seems very peaceful.

 

[hellogoodbye999]

I definitely do. The only difference is that death doesn't scare me; it seems very peaceful.

Yes, i also think death would be peaceful. but i just don't know what waits for me on the other side, thats what scares me

 

[RosebyAnyName]

My motivation has been dwindling for years, now nothing is enjoyable anymore. It's frustrating because, when I had the motivation, I didn't have the resources. Now that I've worked hard for the resources, I don't have the energy or passion. It feels like I was held back on purpose just to be set up for failure, it's probably intentional because society doesn't want you to be happy.

I'm an ex-motivated person. Life for "motivated" people is just having a carrot dangled in front of them, what's so bad about giving up and saying no to the rat race?

 

[Unlucky777]

I tell myself that I'll at least try to change my life for the better and become a better person, but I just have zero motivation for anything. I just make up excuses for why I don't do anything and just rot at home. I've felt like this ever since I was really young like 11 years old, CTB would cross my mind then too.

I never asked to be born, i never said i wanted to live, i didn't ask for the responsibilities of life and yet it's all been thrown on to me. I wish I never existed.

The only reason why I'm still thinking about going through with my plan is because i haven't really tried to give life a shot, I'll try for a few weeks then give up and I'm a bit scared of death.

Does anyone else feel like this

Yes, I've felt like this for a long time and for me it was a trauma response. I just could not get myself to do anything. Motivation will only take you so far. I learned that over last few years.

I've learned to discipline myself. Small steps. I mean like very very small steps. It's possible to change your situation but it requires genuine effort. I hope you consider giving yourself a chance