suffering
Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
- Aug 17, 2018
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There is a brief moment of confusion when I wake up, where my consciousness hasn't caught up with the reality of life. It's a place of limited understanding, where my mind still thinks I am in a dream, and I feel so careless and innocent.............. It's just a fraction of a second. There is no worry about work, about future, about possible bad outcomes, about loneliness, nothing... Even if the dream is a bad one, my mind is so calm as if I'm a child waking up to a day of care free play.
And then reality sets in, like a bulldozer, and I wish I was dead.
And then reality sets in, like a bulldozer, and I wish I was dead.
