Venting I hate waking up

[Darkover]

Waking up feels like being dragged from a place of peace into the harshness of reality, where the weight of existence crashes down as soon as the eyes open. It's like the world comes rushing in with all its demands, all its noise, and all its unrelenting pain, before you even have a chance to take a breath. The relief of sleep fades, and in its place is the overwhelming awareness of everything that's wrong, everything that hurts, everything that makes you want to turn back, to stay hidden in the quiet of oblivion.

Each day feels like a repeat of the last, an endless loop of struggle and suffering, where even the smallest of tasks, the bare minimum to keep living, feels like an insurmountable mountain. The cycle of misery seems to stretch on, with no way out, no reprieve, just the constant, gnawing reminder that you're trapped in this existence, one where happiness feels like a distant memory, something you've forgotten how to even recognize.

It's hard to imagine anything other than this: the pain, the exhaustion, the hopelessness. It's easy to forget that once, maybe, life felt different, felt better. But in this moment, it all blurs into an unbroken string of days, where waking up is both the hardest part and the cruelest. Every morning feels like starting over, only to be pulled back into the same hell, again and again.

 

[MathConspiracy]

I feel you. I barely slept for 6 hours last night. Every time I wake up I tell myself that it's my last day. But no, the next morning comes and I have to go through this shit over and over again. I actually tried to hang myself last night, wasn't even a serious attempt, I was just hoping that I'd pass out by some miracle. Well, here I am.

 

[NoHorizon]

It's the worst part of the day, having that realisation that you're still alive.

 

[Jadeith]

Saw sth similar in someone's profile here:
"kind of tired sleep can't cure"
No matter if i sleep 4 or 10h, always wake up tired.

 

[iloveyouihateyou]

totally agree with you i actually just thought about this this morning, not like it's different from any other morning. the feeling of consciousness coming back and the reality of the situation returning to your mind it's so agonizing, wanting to return to sleep but even worse is when you know have to get up it's like getting beat up every morning it's so horrible

 

[musingsofaghost]

You worded this feeling so accurately. Sleep is my favourite thing because it gives me a brief reprieve from the shitshow that is life. I'd give anything to pass in my slumber and not have to deal with this draining reality.

 

[Pluto]

 

[ratioinsanity]

monotony eats you from inside, it's awful really

 

[Jadeith]

Saw sth similar in someone's profile here:
"kind of tired sleep can't cure"
No matter if i sleep 4 or 10h, always wake up tired.

Found it. It was from restlesseyes and exact quote was:
"Type of tired no amount of sleep can fix"

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

The best part of my day is when I'm asleep and unaware of existence.

Between my psych meds and seizure meds, I'm sleeping 14-16 hours at a time.

 

[ihatemyself2025]

Me too

 

[bankai]

At some point of time I couldn't stomach having to get up and face a new day. It happened a few years ago. Everyday is the same.

 

[Daenerys Targaryen]

Nightmares upon waking, freedom in dreams. When you open your eyes, it's a daily hellish slap. Terrifying boom.