Venting I HATE MY FACE

[fishlover]

anyone who has ever said im pretty is a liar. i dont know why my bf is with me. i thought after i lost all the weight id like how i look. but i still hate my face and i still want to lose more weight. no one likes me because im weird and ugly. my bf is lying to me. he hates me hes going to leave me and i know it. is he lying to me? is he settling for me? does he think im all he can get? hes so handsome compared to me he can get any girl he wants. i want to die if i dont get plastic surgery soon or anything to fix my disgusting face soon im ending it. i cant take it anymore. even then it might not be enough. im cursed and disgusting and so fucking ugly. why do i try. why am i here.

 

[deus_ex_machina]

god makes us ugly to torment us, i believe. ive had the same face since i was 12. ill be 30 this year. i am fat and ugly. but we can do nothing other then ""treatments"" that only work in the semi-short term, and in long term destroys our face. its fucked.

 

[mossmoth]

it hurts thinking about what it's like to be pretty. to automatically have value when you walk into a room rather than have to work for it.
not that there aren't downsides, but it still sucks to be straight up ugly

 

[deadbidaylight]

We are our own worst critics. I can almost guarantee you that your perception of yourself is inaccurate. But that doesn't diminish the fact that you still feel this way about yourself. This is an actual condition called body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) and there are plenty of successful treatment options out there that can really help you.

I know you think you're unworthy of your boyfriend but that's not up to you to decide. It's his decision and he chooses to be with you because he cares for you, and he's likely not going anywhere. You're in a bad state rn and everything will be jumped to worst case scenario. This is your brain telling you lies.

 

[insulinoverdose9000]

Feeling the same way these days. Sometimes it helps to know you're not alone, mostly nothing helps anymore though.

 

[CandyCane]

There are fire victims that can find meaning in life. Have you ever seen one of those? It sounds like you might be a little dysmorphic. Plastic surgery is very hit or miss.

 

[fishlover]

i already got lip fillers and now i feel better 10/10 (it looks very natural and gives the illusion of a shorter philtrum which is what i wanted) my ctb is postponed

i already got lip fillers and now i feel better 10/10 (it looks very natural and gives the illusion of a shorter philtrum which is what i wanted) my ctb is postponed

i did read the replies and i appreciate them. but i have always and will always have the urge to fix myself until i deem myself "acceptable". it may never be enough for me to truly be happy with myself, but its enough for me not to wanna constantly jump off a train platform. losing weight was just the first step. im always constantly improving myself.

i dont know if i have body dysmorphia or something. whether i do or not doesn't matter. im not the type of person who can look ugly and be happy with life that way. i am jealous of those who are less atractive (objectively) and can live life without worrying about it. thats just not me though. and this isnt about society's beauty standards either. i have my own idea of beauty that im trying to achieve, and suprisingly its not something everyone will like, but its my own satisfaction that matters most. (although i do want other people to find me pretty, but i wont care what they think if their idea of beauty is too "basic" if that makes sense.)

 

[Subhumano]

Face is everything tbh

 

[LittleMagician]

i already got lip fillers and now i feel better 10/10 (it looks very natural and gives the illusion of a shorter philtrum which is what i wanted) my ctb is postponed

i did read the replies and i appreciate them. but i have always and will always have the urge to fix myself until i deem myself "acceptable". it may never be enough for me to truly be happy with myself, but its enough for me not to wanna constantly jump off a train platform. losing weight was just the first step. im always constantly improving myself.

i dont know if i have body dysmorphia or something. whether i do or not doesn't matter. im not the type of person who can look ugly and be happy with life that way. i am jealous of those who are less atractive (objectively) and can live life without worrying about it. thats just not me though. and this isnt about society's beauty standards either. i have my own idea of beauty that im trying to achieve, and suprisingly its not something everyone will like, but its my own satisfaction that matters most. (although i do want other people to find me pretty, but i wont care what they think if their idea of beauty is too "basic" if that makes sense.)

This is probably the worst mindset I have ever seen on this forum but I honestly cannot blame you because it was society that drove you to this point of manic fixation…
you're going to have to accept your appearance one way or another and fillers and all these cosmetic procedures are just going to age you and fuck up your face

 

[fishlover]

This is probably the worst mindset I have ever seen on this forum but I honestly cannot blame you because it was society that drove you to this point of manic fixation…
you're going to have to accept your appearance one way or another and fillers and all these cosmetic procedures are just going to age you and fuck up your face

nah... my fillers came out super well and everyone agrees it looks very natural. theres a point of going too far with procedures which i dont want. but i dont have to "accept my appearance" if i have the means to change it to how i like. i want to be pretty to myself first and foremost and society did nothing. this self hate is all mine.

 

[LittleMagician]

nah... my fillers came out super well and everyone agrees it looks very natural. theres a point of going too far with procedures which i dont want. but i dont have to "accept my appearance" if i have the means to change it to how i like. i want to be pretty to myself first and foremost and society did nothing. this self hate is all mine.

What I say still stands, hope you learn to find peace in yourself

 

[tradecode62]

You are an absolutely toxic person.

I'm almost betting that you are not that unattractive at all on the exterior..

I've met your kind before

You want to piss and moan all day about how you're not pretty when really what you want is you want everybody to tell you that you're the prettiest girl in the world and the truth is you're probably not The prettiest girl in the world.

... And when people do tell you that you're pretty, You called them liars just like you did in your original post.

I've dated some of the prettiest girls in the world and i've also dated some dogs..

The nicest quality that i've ever seen in a girl is when she is just super nice and pleasant.

My bet is that there's some kind of underlying issue that bothers you.and you're trying to distract us from looking at that issue by making a fuss about your appearance.

Do you know there's girls that really are not that pretty at all but they are super sweet and men will chase them to the moon to catch them?

Use caution when getting plastic surgery.Because you most certainly can make yourself unattractive physically.

 

[fishlover]

You are an absolutely toxic person.

I'm almost betting that you are not that unattractive at all on the exterior..

I've met your kind before

You want to piss and moan all day about how you're not pretty when really what you want is you want everybody to tell you that you're the prettiest girl in the world and the truth is you're probably not The prettiest girl in the world.

... And when people do tell you that you're pretty, You called them liars just like you did in your original post.

I've dated some of the prettiest girls in the world and i've also dated some dogs..

The nicest quality that i've ever seen in a girl is when she is just super nice and pleasant.

My bet is that there's some kind of underlying issue that bothers you.and you're trying to distract us from looking at that issue by making a fuss about your appearance.

Do you know there's girls that really are not that pretty at all but they are super sweet and men will chase them to the moon to catch them?

Use caution when getting plastic surgery.Because you most certainly can make yourself unattractive physically.

thats funny. i feel like im being mis characterized here. the simple answer is just that i very much hate how i look. and i wish i was anyone but myself. in fact it doesnt even start or end with my appearance.

i know i could look a lot worse, and i find comfort in that sometimes, who wouldnt? but thats not enough for me. i look in the mirror and see so many things to be disatisfied with. and yea, being called pretty is nice but its certaintly not everything. i wouldnt have the amazing boyfriend i have now if all i cared about were my looks.

my first post was a vent. sometimes, i feel like people are lying to me about liking me, how i look, just wanting to be with myself at all- because i think im the most vile thing on this planet. who would want to be with me? who would want to find me pretty? idk. theres moments of clarity where i know im being dramatic but other times it feels like the end of the world.

and honestly, im surprised to get snarky comments lile this- because i didnt think it was so serious. i was really nervous about getting the fillers and wanted to share my relief that it didnt come out badly and i didnt do something terrible in a state of manic self-hate.

but it seems people hate the idea of someone who isnt superrrrr ugly still hating themselves. yea, i look alright now but i cant dislike myself just cause im not the overweight, acne ridden, buck tooth girl i was before? come on now. its the same energy of hating on anorexics because they call themselves fat. (that was a metaphor)

 

[hhtroc]

You are an absolutely toxic person.

I'm almost betting that you are not that unattractive at all on the exterior..

I've met your kind before

You want to piss and moan all day about how you're not pretty when really what you want is you want everybody to tell you that you're the prettiest girl in the world and the truth is you're probably not The prettiest girl in the world.

... And when people do tell you that you're pretty, You called them liars just like you did in your original post.

I've dated some of the prettiest girls in the world and i've also dated some dogs..

The nicest quality that i've ever seen in a girl is when she is just super nice and pleasant.

My bet is that there's some kind of underlying issue that bothers you.and you're trying to distract us from looking at that issue by making a fuss about your appearance.

Do you know there's girls that really are not that pretty at all but they are super sweet and men will chase them to the moon to catch them?

Use caution when getting plastic surgery.Because you most certainly can make yourself unattractive physically.

calling someone toxic when they are actively posting on a suicide forum is another level of cruel

thats funny. i feel like im being mis characterized here. the simple answer is just that i very much hate how i look. and i wish i was anyone but myself. in fact it doesnt even start or end with my appearance.

i know i could look a lot worse, and i find comfort in that sometimes, who wouldnt? but thats not enough for me. i look in the mirror and see so many things to be disatisfied with. and yea, being called pretty is nice but its certaintly not everything. i wouldnt have the amazing boyfriend i have now if all i cared about were my looks.

my first post was a vent. sometimes, i feel like people are lying to me about liking me, how i look, just wanting to be with myself at all- because i think im the most vile thing on this planet. who would want to be with me? who would want to find me pretty? idk. theres moments of clarity where i know im being dramatic but other times it feels like the end of the world.

and honestly, im surprised to get snarky comments lile this- because i didnt think it was so serious. i was really nervous about getting the fillers and wanted to share my relief that it didnt come out badly and i didnt do something terrible in a state of manic self-hate.

but it seems people hate the idea of someone who isnt superrrrr ugly still hating themselves. yea, i look alright now but i cant dislike myself just cause im not the overweight, acne ridden, buck tooth girl i was before? come on now. its the same energy of hating on anorexics because they call themselves fat. (that was a metaphor)

I have insane Body dysmorphia that will kill me pretty soon as a guy and you have my full empathy, I know what it is like. You are probably way prettier than you are and you have mental illness but the suffering is very real and you have my empathy, this shit is fucked up to deal with. If you are smart you take the W from the lip filler and stop obsessing about it for a while.

 

[fishlover]

calling someone toxic when they are actively posting on a suicide forum is another level of cruel

I have insane Body dysmorphia that will kill me pretty soon as a guy and you have my full empathy, I know what it is like. You are probably way prettier than you are and you have mental illness but the suffering is very real and you have my empathy, this shit is fucked up to deal with. If you are smart you take the W from the lip filler and stop obsessing about it for a while.

yea, you get it. the lip filler genuinely did come out great, but when i first got it, it felt like the end of the world and if i didnt do it id have to kms at that very moment because i was so ugly. i even have a phobia of needles, and i still put myself through half of a panic attack because i HAD to have it done.

rn i feel pretty normal. but ik pretty soon ill just start obsessing all over again. it sucks because i wish i could just NOT care abt how i look all the time. i just hope i keep my sanity enough to not do something drastic lip fillers is one thing but i dont wanna look like a plastic barbie

gl to u too man ik it can be harder for guys. men have less cosmetic options.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Sounds like your BF likes your face.