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Parnate

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Dec 16, 2021
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I hate that I desire to both live and die. I keep on fluctuating between wanting to live and die. I hate being stuck in this limbo . Oscillating like this.
There have been three suicides in my family, mother's side. I wish I had that resolve to end it. There are hours of intense desire to end it but I always end up controlling myself from doing that.
 
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usernamesarehard

usernamesarehard

Life sucks and then you die
Dec 22, 2021
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I'm struggling with this too. I want to ctb to just not have to deal with all the bullshit involved in living. But I also want to live and see if things get better.
 

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